[COMPLETED] soft boy//phan (1)

Fifteen

phil

deep down inside i just wanted to hug dan and never let him go because of everything that happened to him. but at the same time i wanted to ask him to just leave, go to a different school.

"why are you doing this, phil?" dan asked and squirmed in my lap.

i sighed, "because i feel bad, okay."

dan rolled his eyes, "sure thing."

"i'm not lying to you."

"how do i know you're not! the first time we met each other you stole my things and got me into this mess! i just wanted another year where i wasn't noticed and now i'm 'scared boy'!" dan yelled at me

"i'm sorry for that, i really am."

i looked into dan's eyes and i knew he had more things to say but didn't because they would probably hurt my feelings.

i looked down because i knew dan wasn't gonna say anything else, noticing the black skirt he was wearing that matched his red nirvana shirt and the long black socks that went to his knees.

he had his shoes kicked off by his locker which made me realize that he's been skipping class.

"i'm sorry, it's all my fault, i know." i whispered and didn't look up at dan again. i actually felt so bad for him, if only my head wasn't up my ass i could not be in this situation.

"i already said it was fine." dan said and got off of my lap so he could sit next to me.

"no it's not fair! i'm the one that made you like this, you could've died! and it's all my damn fault!" i panicked and crossed my arms over my knees and hid my face.

dan said nothing but rested his hand on my leg in reassurance.

i looked back up at him through glossy eyes and noticed how perfect he was, his eyelashes a little bit longer than every other boys'. his curly hair in waves to the side. rosy cheeks and perfect lips that just made me want to..

"phil lester!" louise shouted and i heard dodie hiss at her to be quiet.

i looked to the left and saw them both standing there, smiling softly at dan.

"g-guys this is, dan. dan howell." i said and pointed to him without looking at him.

"hey, sorry if it sounded like we were talking shit about you earlier, we were just curious." dodie apologized to dan and louise nodded.

"it's fine."

"come hang out with us, dan. lunch is about to start." i said and he looked startled.

"a-alright."

i stood up, pulling down with me as louise and dodie skipped off to the lunchroom to meet pj and chris.

i turned to dan once more and smiling before wrapping a arm around his shoulders and pulling him closer as we followed the girls.