[COMPLETED] soft boy//phan (1)

Twenty-Four

phil 

winter break was starting and we were all more that hyped for it, getting to stay up later and not be worried about a stack after stack of homework or be questioned with a pop quiz for three good weeks.

"dan!" i yelled and caught up with him when i saw him walking a few feet ahead of me, running up to be by his side.

"phil you're never gonna guess what happened yesterday!" he sounded genuinely happy and it pained me for a second. it's not that i didn't want him to be happy it's the point where i never thought he would be this happy around me.

"what is it?"

"chris kissed me yesterday! it wasn't a kiss on the lips but he kissed me on the cheek and i never thought he would ever do that! did you know he was into boys?" he still sounded happy as he rambled.

my blood boiled for two reasons. one, that chris never told me he was into boys and two, he thinks he can touch or kiss dan, "no i didn't know that." i said and turned a sharp corner to walk to chris' apartment and demand answers.

"phil? phil, where are you going? please don't get mad at me or chris!" he said and i could tell he was following me which i wanted him to do since i now got the idea in my brain that i wanted to yell at them both.

when i got there i didn't even bother with knocking as i almost dropped down the door and made my way into the living room where there was no presence of chris. i then checked his room where i found him at his desk on his laptop.

"why didn't you tell me you were into boys?!" i asked and flailed my arms and chris had a very confused look on his face and when dan entered the room he understood everything. i turned around to look at the expression on dan's face and he looked more guilty than a boy found sneaking cookies from a cookie jar and getting caught. good.

"i'm sorry, i was going to soon but i was afraid you were gonna hate me." he explained.

"i'm fine with you liking boys but why dan?" i snapped as i pushed on the brim of my nose.

"i'm allowed to like who i want to like and date who i want to date, phil. this isn't elementary anymore, you can't choose my lovers."

"you're acting like i haven't realized that, chris. just keep yourself away from dan or i swear to god."

"why are you so protective of him?" chris crossed his arms.

"because i can and the only person that will ever be allowed to ever touch him is me!" i yelled so loud it made dan and chris cringe and tears started brimming dan's eyes.

"i-i'm sorry phil, i-i didn't mean to make you unhappy." dan apologized and i pulled him into a tight hug, rustling my head into his hair.

"i'm sorry for yelling at you both."
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me, chris and dan all left chris' house, feeling an uncomfortable awkwardness in between us all. it was incredibly shitty for me to yell at chris and dan like that, but i'm just so pissed that chris never told me he liked boys, he could tell me anything so why is he afraid?

"so where are we going again?" i asked and turned to chris who was on my right, i quickly glanced to my left and saw dan walking beside me with his head down and pulling on the strings of his sweater. my heart ached because i still felt bad but i was more than glad they were separated from each other.

"just to the coffee shop in a few blocks." chris smiled at me. i missed his smile.

i smiled back at him and looked back over to dan, "are you okay."

he looked back up at me and smiled, letting go of his sweater strings and his chocolate eyes glistened in the sunset light, "yes, i'm fine."

"that's good."

we entered the store and i looked around. i've lived in this town for the longest time now and i'm honestly shocked that i never noticed this coffee shop before.

"you guys go sit down, i'll buy your drinks. my treat." i said and smiled, i still hated the idea though of dan and chris alone together, i want to know if i can trust them more again because i'm scared they might do something together.

"thanks, phil." chris said and gave me a slight peck on the cheek before he and dan went off to go find a table.

i quickly ordered their drinks and made my way over to them, giving them their coffee, "careful, it's hot."

"thank you, dan."

as i sat down next to him and he slowly scooted closer to me, i felt this happiness in my soul and it was like nothing else i've had before. it was like fireworks erupting in my heart and what i thought about next scared the living shit out of my soul.

i could possibly like dan.