.RED. // Jerrie ~ BOOK 2 #Wattys2017 (Completed)

Chapter 17 - Part 1

June 23rd, 2017
4 days till the wedding...

Perrie's POV

The next morning I woke up and I was the floor. Did I fall asleep on the floor? I looked around me and there was a bottle on the ground next to me. Wine? Why would I be drinking? I rolled it off of my back and walked upstairs, into my room. I looked at myself in the mirror near the closet and my makeup was running down my face!

I almost scared myself when I saw..myself. Then I saw a camera near my bed. Did I record something? I took the camera off of the dresser and took a look at it. Then it started.

Once it played, I immediately remembered what happened.

It started off with me drinking my wine. "Jade..if you ever see this video. I just want you to know.." Then I took a couple more sips of wine.

"I just wanted you to know that you're my everything. You'll always BE my everything. You'll never know how much tears I cried after you said no. You'll never know how much my heart was breaking into tiny pieces. You'll never know about the lovely things I say about you.

You'll never know all these things because..you'll never be with me. I'm happy for you, don't get me wrong.." I said, wiping a running tear. "You found someone who could make you happy for the rest of your life. I just wasn't that person for you and it still kinda hurts but I'm getting better at it.

I'll love you even if you hate me or love me. I'll love you when you're happy or sad. I'll love you till the day we met until the day we die. Jade, you were my first official love and I couldn't be happier that I found you. We had our fun times..we did. But now, it's officially time for us to go our separate ways.

You have your wonderful little girl by your side and now you have a wonderful man by both of your sides. I just hope that he makes you happy that way I did. I hope he treats your the right way like I did. I hope he understands you, the way that I did. I just hope that he LOVES you the way that I did." I said, elongating the word 'LOVES'.

Then it just ended. That was it. I remember going downstairs, crying with my wine, and sitting on the floor in a slob..just knowing that Jade's wedding will be here soon. Wow, I can't believe that I recorded myself saying all that. I meant every word I said from the bottom of my heart. There will never be another girl like Jade for me..she's the only one that I love and the only girl that will stay in my heart forever.

Well, the wedding is in 4 days..I guess I better go find myself a nice and beautiful wedding dress.

Should I wear a long dress? I better, I don't feel like shaving my legs anyways. I walked to the garage and unlocked my car. I didn't care what I looked like, since I had already scrubbed most of the makeup off of my face, and I was only wearing my pajamas.

I opened up the garage and drove out. I didn't know which store I was going to go too but I know that it had to be something cheap since I wasn't a rich gal or anything. I drove to the nearest mall I could find, parked my car, and went inside. I opened up the door and immediately, a girl to my left said to me, "Beauty and the Beast? I love that movie!" "Thanks! I do too, have you seen the live action film?" I asked her.

"Of course like a billion times! I love it so much, especially the part when the Beast sings his heart out. Ugh, so to die for!" She said. We both laughed and I continued my journey to find a beautiful dress. Should I go with the color blue? I think it'll look nice on me.

I walked around and found a few dresses that I liked.

I know what you're thinking. Why did I choose all blue? I'm not sure, I wanted to go for a more darker tone of blue. I didn't want to be a light blue or anything. I just wanted it to be a nice settled color.

Now to try them on.