"I love you more than you'll ever know."
"Then why did you leave me?"
"Because I'm in love with someone else. I'm sorry.."
"Why did you do this to me! I've loved you for a very long time! Now, you decide to break it off to be with that..that..that...
I woke up on the couch with Jackie in my arms and I couldn't have been more happy. I hugged her a little tighter and I prayed that I would never feel that awful feeling again. "Jackie..are you awake?" She shuffled and turned around to look at me. "Yeah a little bit. Are you hungry mommy?" She asked me.
"I am. What do you want to eat?" I said, getting up from the couch and her following me. We went into the kitchen and she said, "Can I have some cereal?" She said as she pulled out a chair from the dining table. "Okay, what kind?" "Any kind, I don't mind." I pulled out a random cereal box and poured it into the bowl. I also had a bowl of cereal with her.
"Jackie, promise me that you will never scare me and Luke like that again. Okay? I was so scared and I was crying baby. I never want you to leave like that again." "Okay mommy. I won't do it again if it scares you or daddy." I smiled after she said 'daddy'. Then Luke walked in. "What's going on in here?" Jackie turned around and smiled. "Good morning daddy, me and mommy are just have cereal."
This is Jackie.
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She's adorable, isn't she?
"Did I just hear her say daddy again?" Luke whispered to me. I nodded towards him as he walked over to make himself some toast or something. "Oh cool, what do you want to do today?" "I don't know. What's today?" I asked him. Suddenly, his face dropped. "It's Monday. Jade, it's Monday! We have to go to work and Jackie has school! Shit!" "Luke! What did I say about cussing around her?" "Sorry, lets get ready. What time is it?" He said, running up the stairs. I checked my phone and I was so relieved. "Baby, it's only 6:45am. Don't worry!" I shouted at him.
"Are you serious?" I heard him say and laugh after. "Yup! I'm pretty damn sure! If I can't read my own phone, then I don't know what I can do." I said laughing. He came back downstairs and said, "Hey, what happened to 'no cussing around my baby girl' type?" "Only I can cuss. Right now, I don't cuss too much."
"What is a cuss word?" Said Jackie, trying to finish her cereal. "Something that you don't need to know right now." I told her. "Okay mommy." She said. We all laughed and I went to go sit on the couch. "Our wedding is in a few weeks." I said. I looked up at him and he was staring down at me..getting tear-y eyed. "Luke, what's wrong? Are you okay?"
"Nothings wrong. I'm just looking at you..thinking that soon, you'll be my wife and I'll love you forever and always. You're beautiful, smart, talented, small, adorable, quirky..you're everything I want." He said, coming to sit down next to me. "Thanks a lot, now you're making me cry." I said, wiping a tear from my eye.
"I just want you to know this. I love you more than anything in the world Jade. Well, I love you and Jackie more than anything." He said, turning to look back at her. I looked at her and looked back at him. I love him, I do and he's been the best thing since Perrie and I split. I want to stay with him but at the same time, I still love Perrie.
"Jade, what's wrong? You kinda like went into a daze.." He said, cupping my face. "Nothings wrong Luke, just know that I love you too." I kissed him. I wouldn't trade him for anything else in the world. He makes me the happiest at the moment and I couldn't have been more happy that I found someone like him. He loves me and he loves Jackie equally.
Every time I look at him, I think of Perrie. I also seem to think about her whenever I'm with Luke. It's like..I'm attached to her through him. I'm too young to be this hurt by someone else. I found Luke a couple weeks after I broke it off with Perrie and he helped me through a lot of stuff. At the time, Jackie was a tiny baby so he was helping me out with her and I'm still grateful for him until this day.
He proposed to me one day and I immediately said yes. I felt like he was the right person, at the time, for me. Now...I'm not so sure. Every time I see Perrie, I think of all the fun times that we've had. The worst part is..that she was my first real love. Sure, Pixie was my girlfriend but I never really loved her like I loved my Pez..
So many questions but yet...so many unanswered questions...
/// I just want to thank all of you for reading my books! It means a lot that some of you would stick around for the second book. We're almost at 800 reads! I can't believe that! Thank you again, and please keep reading! I hope you all are still enjoying the book as much as I am writing it! 💜
