"I love you more than you'll ever know."
"Then why did you leave me?"
"Because I'm in love with someone else. I'm sorry.."
"Why did you do this to me! I've loved you for a very long time! Now, you decide to break it off to be with that..that..that...
"How do you feel?" Jesy asked me. "What do you how do I feel? I feel amazing! I'm getting married to Luke, it couldn't be any...any better.." I said tearing up. "Jade.." Jesy said, rubbing my back. "What's the matter? Are you happy crying or upset crying or mad crying?"
"Would it bad for me to say that I'm upset crying?" "Jade, what are you upset about?" "I'm so confused.." "Confused about what?" "I don't know if I should call off the wedding or not!"
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"Now why in hell, would you call off the wedding? Is it because of him or because of..of Perrie?" I looked up. "The thing, I'm still in love with Perrie but I also love Luke. I don't know what to do or who to choose. If I marry Luke, I can't stop thinking of Perrie. I've had a lot of trouble in the past but Perrie and Luke have both made me feel so special.
They both make me feel some type of way. If I marry Luke, Jackie will finally have a dad at a young age and she'll be happy. If I get together with Perrie, then Jackie will have two moms and she'll start questioning her life and my life and she'll ask me why she has two moms.."
"Jade, it doesn't have to be that way. Who do you love more?" "That's the problem Jes, I can't! I love both of them equally. I already hurt Perrie by saying that I love Luke and that I'm gonna marry him. I don't want to hurt Luke that same way I hurt Perrie." "What do you love about Luke?" "What kind of question-" "Just answer it."
"I love Luke because he's smart, funny, cute, ridiculously stupid but in a cute boyfriend kind of way. You know?" "Understand. What do you love about Perrie?" I sighed. "I love how she laughs when I do stupid stuff, she cries when we watch sad chick flick movies, she nods off whenever I tried to read to her, she mocks me when we get into a fight but then she gets me ice cream, when she got me Camille, we both started crying and we told each other that we loved each other..
But I have to go through with the wedding. I can't leave Luke hanging, I love him and I want to be with him." "So tonight, all you're gonna think about is Luke right? No Perrie, just Luke." "I got it, I just need to stop thinking about Perrie."
Perrie's POV
"So, what's up with you and Jade? You still love her?" Leigh asked. "Why bring this up? Why today?" "Sorry, I'm just curious. It's just that, I have a vibe that you need to talk about something." "I don't need to talk about anything. All the focus has to be on Jade and Luke. Not me, especially not today."
"Are you sure?" I sighed. "Leigh no, I'm not okay. I hate myself for coming and now it's way too late. I still love Jade with all my heart. I've tried to date other people because it's just a hard time. I hate seeing her so happy with Luke and it hurts. It hurts me Leigh, this should've been my wedding with her. It should've been me..putting the ring on her finger..kissing her..calling her my wife.
I knew it was too early to ask her to marry me. I should've waited. If I waited, we would've been here by now. I love her Leigh, she's the most beautiful wonderful and most loving woman I've ever met." "There you go. Maybe you'll meet someone new and you'll have a second chance at a great relationship like you and Jade. You never know Pez, things could change for the difference."
I started crying.
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What Leigh said is true, I should be out there looking for someone at least better than Jade. If she's gonna marry this man, it's over for good. At least, she'll still be my best friend forever. I love her but I'll have to let her go. "Perrie, are you okay? Do you still want to walk around?" "I'm okay, I just need to clean this whole mess up. My face, I mean."
"I know. You'll be okay. Jesy and I will be right next to you when Jade is walking towards the stage. Don't you worry Perrie, we love you and we'll take care of you until you find someone new."
I hugged Leigh so tight like she was last person on earth..
I don't know what I'm gonna do after this wedding..
