Believing in Fate

Chapter 13

                                                                               Katelyn

I told him...... I actually told him!! What the hell am I going to do if he rejects me...... What if he doesn't believe me........ I cant live with out him, he's my mate and even if he doesn't understand I still love him.

"No. I cant be your mate." A sharp pain hit me in my chest as he spoke.

"Wh.....Why not." Tears threaten to spill. I cant let him leave me. I cant live with out him.

"Because, I am a weak, small guy. Not to mention a human. You deserve better then me." He stands up, my desk chair roiling backwards on my floor. "Now i know the reason you want to be with me, Its not because you want to but because you have to. Because i'm your mate."

"What the hell are you saying!" I screamed at him. "I know that you don't understand, I know that you're just a human. But i don't care I love you! you're my mate, the one person i have been dreaming about my entire life."

"No, you would never dream about me!" He snaps. "I cant protect you like a guy wolf would. You don't need me you need someone else, you need to have another wolf for a mate, not me!" I think he just shattered my heart.

"Please." I cried. "Don't think like that..... I need you, you are the only man that i want in my life. My Moon goddess but us together for a reason!"

"Wait. Is this what you meant when you told me that you have no control over your own life." I nod, "You cant even chose who you spent the rest of your life with."

"We wolfs do get to chose. It is chose for us. Because there is something in life that we must do. And we have to have that one person we need to help us get there. To protect us for what ever is thrown our way."

"See my point exactly, how can i ever protect you! you're a wolf for god shake!" He yells throwing his hand up into the air.

"Maybe you're not meant to protect me." Lowering his arm he looks at me. Mixed expression written all over his face. "What if you're my mate because i have to protect you, to help you!" I really don't think i am getting any were with him right now.

"This is exactly why i like to take my time with things. To plan out ever little detail, because when i don't everything goes to hell." I feel tears streaming down my face. What the fuck I am sure as hell crying way to much! "will you at least give it a chance. Give me a chance." He looks away from me, i know he hates to see me cry, and knowing that he's the reason must me eating at him right now.

"I want to."  I feel as if the world has just been lifted off of my shoulders. "But i don't know how to. I know that there is something between us because I feel a pull towards you. When you're not next to me my world goes dark. It's as if you're my sun, the thing that gives everything else life."

He's so romantic. At least i know he feels something for me. Even if he doesn't understand as to why he does, and he may never will.

"Does this mean you'll give being my mate a chance?" He smiles at me and says,

"If you actually want me to be your mate, and not just because this moon lady says that you have to, then i'll give it a try," I want to jump into his arm and kiss him but he keeps talking. "But i need to know that you want to be with me for me, not because you have to."

I jump off of my bed, my leg giving out on me, causing me to fall on top of him. Pushing him onto my bedroom floor. Cashing my lips onto his. He stays still for a moment out of shock, till he takes control over the kiss, which is something that i love! Pulling back so i could talk to him once more.