Living with the Lee boys

Chapter 34- the end result

             One day, one thought, one word, one sound, one voice, one moment, one person, one helping hand. One- a small amount, an easy to write a number, something single forever. One- a number of times needed to make an in-reversible mistake. One- enough changes in life to occur that you wish didn't. One- a number of days I sat in the cell without torture. Of course, it wasn't only one tear, that's too little. Think about 10, 100, 1000 tears. However, it was only one thought that sent me into overdrive. It was a thought about my family. And of course, the occasional thought about Adam and Josh because it only took one fight, one girl (me), and one word, to push them apart.

Adams POV

I always thought it was funny, silly even when people said "it was love at first sight" or "its death to wait for someone to wake up." I mean, I understood the second part, but death seemed much exaggerated. Now, neither of the sayings are funny, and I'm living proof.

"Adam sweetie, you've got to eat something. All you've done today is watch Kate and occasionally doze off yourself. She's strong, she'll fight this, and when she does wake up you don't want her to pass out from the shock of your appearance, do you?"

I sigh realizing my mom was right; it was definitely time for a shower. I didn't want to leave though, what if something bad happened while I was gone? Or what if she woke up and I wasn't there? Either way, I wouldn't be able to forgive myself if I wasn't here for her. After all, I was the reason why she's in the coma.

If only I had warned her the bullet was coming. If only I had jumped in the way faster. If only I hadn't let her go so soon.

"Adam, go shower, I'll watch her," Josh said as he walked back into her hospital room. His hair was damp and his shirt was wrinkled, but his eyes held more hope than an innocent girl using her puppy dog face to get a bite of ice cream cake.

Josh and I had a really long and hard talk about Kate. She's special to both of us, but now in different ways. Josh is starting to think of Kate as his sister instead of a lover. Although he claims his past feelings for her real, he said it must've been on the verge of sibling love and dating love. I'm starting to be okay with seeing Josh around Kate. In the beginning, I was ready to rip heads, but now I'm seeing a difference.

I walk back to her hospital room remembering the last time I saw her eyes. The fear, shock, and confusion it held when I shouted her name. I was too late. The fluttering at the end and the pang in my heart as I realized it could've been the last time her eyes would open again. The doctors say she's a really lucky girl. Any sudden moves and the bullet could've landed on a very important organ. So much blood was lost.

These past 2 weeks have been torture. Every day I sit here, read to her, talk to her, and pray that she'll wake up. The doctors say she has a 50/50 chance of living and that scares me. My mom says I should start worrying about my grades because I need to be accepted into college. To me, Kate matters more because once I know she's okay I can pick up on my studies. I can never remake lost time I had with her.

"Kate, please wake up! I'm begging you," I say while tears trickle down my face. I've learned to not hold my tears and emotions for her because she deserves the real me and not someone I'm holding back.

"I will never forgive myself for acting as terrible as I did towards you. I always tried to hold back my feelings because I was afraid. I guess I was afraid of rejection or not being as good as Josh. Really, I should've been better to you and not so crappy. I wanted to change but was too stupid. I need you; I want to make things right with you. I really care about you and regret every single nasty word I said." Twitch.