Hating Heath (COMPLETED)

HEATH POV (4)

Heath POV

Present time...

But all it takes was a simple invitation of my uncle for me to consider going back to the Philippines. It only takes an invitation to remind me of the land where I met her. It reminded me of the girl who is the reason for my sleepness nights and zombie days.

For the last two years I've been losing my mind, her face haunts me everyday, I been craving to hear her voice or just her smell. I told my dad that I have to take a quick break from being the president of one of our businesses and book a ticket right away. Maybe if I see her again it will put an end to my everyday torture. Maybe it will bring me closure.

But closure was the last thing I wanted when I saw her again. One look at her beautiful face, brings back the feeling that I felt the first time I ever saw her. The nonstop pounding of my heart whenever I see her. The melting effect she has on me every damn time her lips moves. My feelings didnt change at all.

My eyes cant seem to look away from her. I realized I only made my feelings worse as I felt how hard I missed her. How all I wanted was to hold her. How all I wanted was to hear her voice. How all I wanted was to be lost in her eyes. This is total madness. She can drive me to madness.

Then I saw my cousin walk towards her with a child in his arms and thats all it takes to remind me of how she can hurt me. It reminds me again of the hurt she can inflict in me. Excruciating pain. Fvck!

I felt like my world collapsed.
It looks like her dreams came true.
She can no longer be mine.
And it hurts like hell.

I wanted to hurt her too. I wanted to make her pay for the pain she inflicted to me over and over again. I got my chance when I saw her walk towards the comfort room. All I wanted was to confront her but I ended up kissing her and my hunger for her gets the better of me. I ended up making love to her again. Then my world started building up again. Making me whole again. I felt home with her by my side. I decided to be her third party. Even if her body is all I can have, I will take it. I dont care if she's married. I dont care if she has a son! Fvck pride! Fvck morals!When it comes to Lauren I dont have any.

Her words slapped me once again to the reality that I dont own her. That she will always comeback to Levi. I may have own her body but not her heart. But I am a beggar for her love. I'll take whatever she can give me. Pathetic, I know.

People are talking behind her back. I heard one guest says she's a disgrace. Having a child outside of marriage. It shocked me. Why the hell did my cousin not marry Lauren?! It angered me so I followed them home. I saw how sweet they are. How Lauren initiate kisses and embraces.

Fvcking low standard slut!

I could have made her my queen. I could have worship her feet.
I could have given her my world, my full attention even a fvcking marriage and a lifetime with me.
That's how crazy I am of her.

And here she is, contented with just being Levi's bed partner. Not even demanding marriage.

Why is she so desperate to be with Levi! Damn!

But deep inside I know why. The same reason why I am here and stalking them. Why I am desperate too to be with her.

Fvck this life!

Now that I know they are not married, I wanted to use that to my advantage. Maybe this is my chance to get her. After being away with her, it made me realized that I can never forget her. And only she can make my world complete. Afterall, I've been inlove with her for seven years and not seeing her for another two years wouldnt change that.

I bought an engagement ring with the intention to propose to her. If my cousin doesnt have the balls to marry her... well, I do!

I will try my best to make her happy if she'll just marry me.

She will be my wife and by that I'll make sure she will be mine till I take my last breath!