White Tree house

Wanting The Pain to Go Away

Harry's POV

I was running away as far as I could from Autumn.

I knew that she was telling the truth this time.

Her voice assured me.

But for some reason, there was something else that she wasn't telling me.

I didn't care anymore.

Her explanation was enough to tell me that she didn't love or even care about me.

She's a monster.

Girls may do weird stuff so they could find more attention from me, but she made me fall in love with her.

The worst part was that she didn't love me back.

I ran to the roof as I panted and fell on the ground.

Tears still poured down on my cheeks.

I've never been crying this much.

All the pain came out.

All those years waiting and not wanting any other girl, but her.

It was all a mistake.

She was a mistake.

I didn't know how this pain could stop.

I don't think that I could live after listening to what she just said.

I took my black iPhone5 out of my pocket so I could tweet that I was going on the twit cam.

I waited a few minutes before I opened twit cam.

I put my phone against the wall so they could see me clearly as I took a deep breath.

I saw my face and it was as red as a tomato.

My eyes were puffy and tears still streamed down my face.

I could already see messages asking me if I were okay.

I chuckled.

I loved my fans so much.

At least they cared about me.

I sigh. "Hey guys. To be honest, I'm not okay. I'm not okay at all.." I said between sobs.

I saw the messages from people again asking why?

"Well.. I heard the most terrifying news from a person who I've loved for three years and she was the reason I couldn't look at another woman in any other way.. So.. Here I am, at school.." Tears were still spilling.

"Sorry.. But I'm not here to answer your questions and.. I don't think I could ever answer them ever." I faked smile at the screen.

"I don't see the point of living anymore after what just happened. I don't see the point of talking anymore." I chuckled.

"Feeling.."

"Moving.."

"Breathing.." I swallowed my saliva.

I know this sounds so pathetic, but I don't know why.

Otto was like my air to breath in, and without her, I can't live anymore.

More tears came out as I stood up, still sobbing.

"I love you guys so much.. But.. The girl that just broke my heart doesn't love me back. I love you boys.. Niall, Zayn, Liam, Louis.. All of you have been like brothers to me and.. I'll miss you a lot up there.. I'll miss you mom, dad, sis.. everyone I love.." I said slowly before took a deep breath.

I saw the messages asking if I was killing myself.

Some said don't kill myself.

Some was offensive, but I ignored them.

The only thing that would stop me right now is to hear Otto saying it.

Saying that she cared.

Saying that she loves me.

But that was impossible.

"I hope you have a good life Otto.." I smiled sadly.

I stood and walked towards the end of the roof while my phone was still facing me, so the people could still see me.

"BYE CRUEL WORLD!" That was my last words.

I let my body fall.

I just wanted the pain to go away.

This was the only way.

Every memory appeared in my head.

The first day when I saw Otto.

The day she cried and I comforted her.

The day I asked her out.

The day of our date and the day where I showed her the Tree House and told her that I wanted kids.

The day when Rick kidnapped us.

The day when she broke my heart for the first time and the second time.

I just can't believe that it was all an act when it felt so real.

It felt so real when she laughed, when she kissed me and when she's always around me.

It's like that she was so happy.

But I guess that I was just too blind to see it.

Everything went slow motion when my body fell.

I could see my tears falling upwards while I thought about death.

I looked up at the sky.

Suddenly, faces appeared on the roof where I left.

The boys were up there.

Watching me about to end my life.

I gave them a sad smile as I saw their worried faces.

I was so blessed.

Each one of them were crying and shouting at me.

Some other strangers were up there too, but I ignored them.

Then I saw the most beautiful yet monstrous face.

Otto.

She came up the roof for me.

Why?

I thought that she never cared.

I saw her in tears and her lips moving.

Those soft and kissable lips that I miss.

I have never seen her so worried in my entire life.

It looked like she cared for once after she said those four deadly words.

'I don't love you.'

Everything went black after thinking about Otto's four killing words.

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