No Reflection|Kellic

Chapter 12

KELLIN'S POV
I stumbled backwards, holding my breath.
Vic couldn't know. He probably didn't even believe in the paranormal!
'Uhh..' I muttered to myself, trying to find an excuse to not turn around.
He laughed to himself and slowly, keeping a suspicious eye on me, he turned around.
I couldn't even look. I hid behind my hands not wanting to see the look of shock, probably fear and confusion on his face.

'Kellin?' Vic asked.
He pulled my hands away from my face.
I grimaced and looked.
The bags were in his hands and his face did show confusion.. but it was towards me.

'What?' He asked.
I eyed the bags. They looked fine.
I frowned and shrugged, turning around to walk off.

He grabbed my shoulder and spun me around, pressing his lips against mine.

My breath caught in my throat, but I dismissed it. After all, I didn't need it.

I kissed back softly, letting my eyelids slowly close.

There was that voice in my head screaming at me that this was wrong, but it just felt so right.

He wrapped his arm round my back, pulling me in and deepening the kiss.

He traced his tongue across my lips and slipped it in.

You can't do this
You can't do this
You can't do this
You can't do this
You can't do this

' I can't do this.' I breathed and pulled away.
He looked at the floor, his cheeks glowing a light shade of red.
'I'm sorry.' He whispered.
'No, no it's not..it's not you're fault.' I stuttered.

He laughed slightly.
'Let me guess, it's not me, it's you right?' He asked.
I looked at the floor.
'I'm sorry, I didn't - it wasn't meant to sound horrible.. I've just heard it so many times.' He said.
I sighed.
'I'm really sorry, I just couldn't do that to you.' I whispered.
'Do what?' He asked, sweeping a hair out of my eye with his thumb.

I sighed again,' Nothing, j-just don't worry okay?'

'Kells, I can't help you if you won't talk to me.' He placed his hand in mine.

'No one can help me!' I screamed, pulling my hand out of his.

'Yes they can Kellin! If you tell me what's going on! Please, I'm begging you!' He pleaded.

I tried to swallow the lump in my throat but it was no use, tears were spilling down my face continuously.

'Please don't cry.' He begged.
That made me cry more.

'I can't tell you.' I finally whispered, another tear forming.

'Yes, you can.'
'No I fucking can't!' I screamed.
He shook his head and tried to grab my hand but this time, I pulled back.

He sighed heavily and ran his fingers through his long, brown hair.

'Kells, I really like you. Like a lot.
Tears spilt down my cheeks again and more threatened to spill.

'I like you too.' I sniffed, choking out a small cry.

'Then why?!' He cried.
'Please, I can't tell you!' I sobbed.
'I'm not leaving this room until you tell me.' He said sternly.
That doesn't sound too bad.
Stop being selfish.

'I'm not telling you.' I stated.
'Okay then.' He sat next to his shopping bags and crossed his arms, staring at me.

I shrugged and left the room.
I heard him groan in annoyance but I carried on walking and locked the door behind me.

Jesse was standing there, looking annoyed.
'What was that?' He asked.
'What?'
'You two, you're not meant to get close!'
'Well why do you think I pulled away you idiot!' I screamed.
'You nearly told him.' He lowered his voice. He always did this when trying to sound intimidating and, it actually worked.

'But I didn't.' I stated.
'But you nearly did, didn't you?' He growled.
'But I didn't though!' I yelled.
'That's the the point! What happens if you slip and you do tell him!' He screamed.
'That won't happen.'
'How do you know that.' He asked.
'I don't know. Just please stop.' I cried.
His face softened.
'I'm sorry, I- I just worry about you.'
I sobbed and wrapped my arms around him.

I really liked vic, and not just because he was in my favourite band, in fact, the last few days, I forgot.
But sometimes, even love had to be forgotten about.

'Kellin? Whose in there?' Vic called through the door.

I sighed and unlocked the door, showing that no one was in there.
I was shocked when I saw tear stains down his cheeks.
I've never seen him cry and to be honest, it broke my non beating heart.

'There's someone else isn't there?' He whispered.
'What?' I asked, my heart melting.
'You love someone else, that's why you're being so secretive and that's why you keep pulling away.' He cried.
I frowned and shook my head, 'No-no it's not that!' I said.

'What then!' He cried.
'I can't tell you!' I screamed.
'Yes! Yes you can!'
I started to cry again, 'I can't vic please!'

'Why?'
'Because I Like you!' I cried.
'And?'
'I'll lose you!'
'You won't, I'm not going to go anywhere!' He cried.
'You will! You'll run for the hills!' I screamed.
'Now you're worrying me.' He calmed down slightly.
'I can't.' I whispered.
'You're not on the run or something?' He asked.
I laughed slightly, yet I wasn't happy. Not at all.
'No, nothing like that'
'Then it can't be that bad, please?'
I shook my head.
'Kellin! Just fucking tell me I'm literally begging!' He screamed.
'How many times! I. CANT. TELL.YOU!' I screeched.

'There's nothing stopping you!' He cried.
'I'm stopping myself, you'll hate me. You'll freak out, you'll run!'
'I won't! I swear.' He begged.
I shook my head.
'Please, come back to San Diego, you might finally trust me enough to tell me.' He whispered.
'I do trust you!'
'Then tell me!'
'NO!' I screamed, hurting my own ears.
'Then come back with me!' He cried
'I can't!' I yelled.
'Why!?'

'BECAUSE I DON'T EXIST, I'M NOT REAL!'

(A/N)
Sorry I haven't published in a while, I've been away on a trip.
I hope you enjoyed this chapterrr,
See ya frens👋🏻
- ObsessedBandTrash✏️