No Reflection|Kellic

Chapter 28

KELLINS POV
My throat feels like sandpaper, my eyes burning with tears. My heads pounding and my stomach hurts,
'Where is he?' I sob quietly to myself.
It had been three days.
Three whole days without vic.
And it was killing me.

Mike hasn't come back either.
I try and stay positive, try and imagine the positive things rather than think the worst.. but, it's hard.

I sniffed and hiccoughed slightly, wiping my eyes on my damp sleeve.
There was a knock at the door.
'Come in..' My voice was hoarse and damaged from crying.
I slowly turned around, Jaime stood at the door, his expression sad and hopeless.

'Anything?' I whispered.
He shook his head, his face crumpling up.
'I just want them to come home. I want to know they're okay.' He sobbed.
Tears streamed down my face, 'So do I.'
Jaime walked over and wrapped his arms around me.
'I don't know what to do Kells.' He sobbed.
This set me off even more, Vic called me kells.
No, he calls me kells.
I wiped my eyes and stood up, leaving Jaime sat on the bed.
Tony was standing in the doorway, his eyes red and puffy.

'They'll be fine.. they could've lost their phones and got lost.. anything could've happened.. don't assume the worst.' Tony whispered, his voice cracking at the end.

I sighed.
They didn't lose both of their phones.
Something's happened.
I can feel it.

A door slammed, making me jump.
We all shot up, running out of the room and into the main hall.

'Oh my god, Mike!' Tony screamed, running up to Mike.

Something isn't right..
Where's Vic.
Tony stopped running as he saw Mikes puffed up eyes.

'What is it? Where is he?' I whispered.
Mike exploded into tears collapsing on the floor.
'He's gone!' He screamed.
'W-what?' I stuttered.
'H-he's g-gone!' He cried.

'He's d-dead?' I said, but it barely came out as a whisper.

Mike cried harder, sprawled out on the floor whilst Tony cradled him, tears spilling out of his eyes.

I looked at Jaime who hadn't moved.
He was stood there in shock.
Then it sank in.
He's dead.

My knees buckled and everything went black.

VICS POV
It's been three days.
I've come to terms with it.
I'm dead.
It sucks.

I wonder if everyone's found out yet.
Jaime, Tony... Kellin..

Kellin..
My Kellin.

Does he know..
I need to find him..
Or..
He needs to find me...

(A/N)
Oml I haven't published in a while, Soz bout that😂
Things have been going on recently and ergh and all that, and a few chapters ago I explained everything and my mental state and shite like that and the past week has been really hard.
I've been wanting to relapse real bad.. but..
I didn't!!!!!
And I'm so happy I didn't.
But yeah, I've just been worrying about a few things and urghhhh. I'm meeting Ptv in march and I feel like that's the only thing keeping me going so I'm worried for what's gunna happen after that but I feel like I'll make it.. hopefully.
And some days I'll think 'fuck my weight I don't care' and then I'll eat more than I wanted to and then Ill feel bad about it a few hours later and erghhhhhh idk.
I feel like everything's getting better slowly even tho there are bad days, it's just my weight. I hate it so much and I feel ill every time I eat coz I know it's just putting more weight on me.
But apart from that I feel like everything's kinda on it's way to better.
I think.
I write these things coz I'm anonymous here so I don't Feel attention seeking or shit like that and it just gets things off my chest even tho ppl prob don't even read, which is fine, I just wanna write everything down.
But today's been a good day, which is why I decided to publish I guess.
Anywayyy,
Hope y'all had a great day,
Be positive,
I love you all❤️
Byeeee👋🏻
-ObsessedBandTrash👀