No Reflection|Kellic

Chapter 13

'BECAUSE I DON'T EXIST! I'M NOT REAL!'
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KELLIN'S POV
I regretted it a soon as I said it.
My eyes snapped wide open.
I was frozen to the spot.
My breathing wasn't a normal pace, and right now I wanted it - I needed it. I wanted to feel alive again.
I wanted to be alive again.

I could feel Jesse shooting daggers with his eyes from behind.

'I'm sorry but it's the truth.' I whispered, through I wasn't sure who to.

Vic? Jesse? Maybe even myself.

'W-what do you mean?' Vic asked, confused.

I sighed and ran my hands through my hair.

I could already feel more tears forming in my eyes.

'That doesn't matter.' I said, barely audible.

'Of course it does! You can't leave it like that!' He exclaimed.

'Yes, I can. It's my life.'  My voice broke at the end.
The reality is, it's not my life. I don't have a life.
That life ended a year ago.
In fact, nothing even mattered anymore.

It's not like I could go back with vic anyway.
So I guess, I'll just put it straight now.
'I'm dead.' I said blankly.

Fear covered his face, but it was quickly replaced with a frown.
'Hah, very funny.'
I rolled my eyes and went to walk off.
'Hey!' He called, and ran to grab my shoulder.
I snapped around and jerked away.
'What.' I said.
'Kells, I really like you. Like really like you. Please, I can't help you unless you tell me what's going on.' His eyes were sad.

I laughed dryly.
'Great, okay whatever.' I said.
'Kells.'
'Why would I lie to you about something like that!' I screamed.

He looked startled and took a step back.

'I'm sorry.' I whispered.
'I j-just, I can't believe you. I just don't believe in that sort of stuff.'

I turned around, knowing Jesse would be there.
He didn't look impressed at all.

'Okay. If Jesse's willing to co-operate,' I said frowning at Jesse,' I'll prove it.'

'Whose Jesse?'
'A friend.'

'Jesse.' I said.
He shook his head, 'Nope.'
'Please, he thinks I'm a nutter.'
'You are.'
'Please just help me prove it.'
'Walk through a door.'
'No, you know I hate doing that.'
He rolled his eyes, but nodded.

He walked over to vic's bags and nodded.

'Vic, Jesses going to move your bags.' I whispered, not daring to let my voice betray me.

I couldn't even look at vic. I loved him. And I'm pushing him away.
But what choice do I have?

The bags lifted.
I could hear vic's breath stop in his throat.

He stared at me.
I stared back, a tear falling down my cheek.

'Please..' I whispered.
But he was gone.
Out of the door.

I ruined it.

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I checked the clock.
7.30pm
I sighed.
He's still not back.
I'm such an idiot.
I felt so empty with him not being here.
It's usually different. The other times I knew he'd come back, maybe give me a kiss or just simply smile at me. But this time, it would be different.
Would he even come back?
I don't know.

Everything just happened too quickly.
A year ago, I wanted the pain to end, not to carry on.

I'd give anything to be living again.
I sighed and rest my head against the wall.

Jesse walked in.
I mentally groaned. Great, lecture time.

'I'm sorry.' I said.
He sighed but smiled gently.
'It's okay. What's done is done.'

I was kinda shocked by his calmness but I was too worried to react.
Where was vic?
Was he okay?
Is he ever coming back?

I couldn't get it through my head.
He knew. I told him. And I ruined everything.

'I'll make you some tea.' Jesse said.
I smiled slightly, 'Thanks.'

He knew how much I liked tea and it always made me slightly happier when I was feeling down.
It warmed me up and made me feel alive again.

Flash!
Boom!

I felt bad.
I hope vic's okay.
I could hear the rain pattering on the ceiling.
I always liked thunder storms, I thought the lightening looked cool.
But I couldn't take the time to appreciate them now.
I was too worried.
Was he out there on his own?
Was even still here?
I don't know.
I don't know anything anymore.

The front door opened.

I shot up to see if it was Vic.
My stomach twisted.
It was.
He squeezed the water out of his hair and scanned the room.

Our eyes met, he smiled slightly.
Wait.
He smiled at me..

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(A/N)
Ik this chapter is rubbbbiishhh (I say that bout all my chapters TBH, great sign.)
But idk. I guess I enjoy it and that's all that matters, it's just a bonus that people read it and actually find it half decent (hopefully at least a few do..😂)
Anywayyyy, thankyou for 300 readss❤️
And also I'm pretty sure Fallen angels got to 700 so thanks for that and I also forgot to say thanks for 2.2K on Dead Walker (I think it's 2.23 now idk😂)
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