Thankful & anniversaries

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It's the 23rd July 2017, I just want to thank everyone in our 1D family. I hate calling us a "fandom" because it just doesn't feel right. This family has been a place I call home, I feel accepted, supported and I met amazing people over the years.

I watched the boys on X Factor 2010 but I didn't become true fan until early 2011. I'm speechless over the comments that I have received on this book being extremely supportive when I was struggling to recover from self - harm. The boys, the family and every reader has helped me has a person. So thank you.

This family, you have saved my life. I would read comments and get teared up because I was alone and reading something like "I'm here for you" when I went through my depression, self harm and suicidal thoughts, meant something to me. I was alone, I had nobody to turn too, nobody to talk to because I don't open up. That's why I never took up on people's offers when they said "DM me any time" I just couldn't. Sorry. My guilt from a family death kept me up at nights because I couldn't sleep. Before they died I started this book because I needed to focus on something other than reality and writing was one. I went back and screenshotted some comments;
Mxia123
cupcakesandhazza
HaleyStyles____
Blue123584
Loyal03
graciesue1234
thatonegirlthatwrite
sykrh_mhdxx

(I think I got the correct accounts, if not please tell me. Thank you.)

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Also coming across comments people told me their stories

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Also coming across comments people told me their stories. I will not be adding screenshots in because they may want to keep it private.
But thank you.

I am 363 days clean from self harm. (I'll probably talk about it more once I'm a year clean) It's hard trying to stay clean. But I'm tired of trying to cover up my cuts, I'm tired of making up excuses to loved ones, I'm just tired of the process. I'm tired of being judged. I'm tired of stereotypes. If anything I still want to harm, I've been thinking it about it everyday for the last month. But I can't. I can't bring myself down that path, again. I don't talk much about self harm anymore because although I want people to know about the consequences, I'm risking myself in the process. For example right now? I'm getting an urge to harm. I only talk about it to raise awareness, to inform the younger audience.

I want to thank everyone who has came across this book.

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93.4K reads? 1.47K votes? 395 comments? Thank you. Thank you so much.

Talk to me anytime, even to rant.

Love ya xx😘

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