Not Supposed To Be

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Someone was screaming, it was Annie. Mags was trying to calm her down and Finnick stared right at me as white as the sand on the beaches. I probably looked the same walking towards the stage.

Once on stage Annie stopped screaming and was buried in Finnick's side. He was running his fingers through her hair, but was looking at me with a helpless look. Finnick does everything he can to save me. But the reaping renders him helpless. Snow did not forget about me. He waited till I was better, till Finnick had hope, then Snow rips it from him.

Giff threw his arm around my shoulder and asked for applause. Shouts of Odair and clapping boomed across the square. It was an honor to go into the games. Finnick won the 65th people believed I could win too, since he did. Oh, how wrong they are. I have no chance of winning these games.

The boy's name was called but I wasn't listening. My hands were shaking horribly and I put them behind my back so no one would notice. The sickness caused that shaking to start. Uncontrollable shaking. I'm going to die.

The anthem played and I was led into the Justice Building and into a room. Nobody will come to see me. Finnick and the other Victors will be taken to the train station and I have no friends. I have an hour to think about how I'm going to die.

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I sat on the train next to the boy from my district, Hector, the escort called him that, listening to Griff talk about the Capitol and what happens to us next. I barely listened. Finnick and Annie both told me about what happens. It made them feel better to have someone listen and to tell about what happened to them.

"It's time to meet your mentors." Griff said and left the room.

I stared at the door he passed through and thought about Annie. She screamed and cried at the reaping. She won the 70th but went crazy when her district partner was beheaded. But, I love her and she's like a sister to me and Finnick loves her to. I don't want her to get worse because of me. I don't want to hurt her.

"I'm going to kill you in the arena." Hector said looking at me, well more like glaring.

"What?"

"Finnick is going to do whatever he can to save his sister. If you were killed he would have to save me so, I will kill you before he can help you."

The door opened and the mentors walked in. Annie wasn't with them and Finnick gave me a small smile. He could probably see the shock on my face and probably thought it was for Annie. 'I'm going to kill you in the arena.'

The mentors moved us to the table for dinner. As I walked over Finnick grabbed my arm and pulled me into a hug. I buried my face in his shirt and thought about weather I should tell him what Hector said. No, I'll just let it go odds are maybe someone else will kill him first.

"Annie is fine. I just made her lay down." Finnick whispered in my ear.

After dinner we watched the recap of the reaping. The boy from District 2 looked like a challenge. But, everyone from two does. Then it was District four. My name being called Finnick's face, Annie screaming.

The commentators talked as I walked to the stage. How the games will be exciting this year due to another Odair being in the games. How they'll see another Finnick. I hated being compared to my brother. I love him, but I not like him.

The only thing we have in come is the same sea-green eyes and tanned skin. I can't use a trident to save my life. Believe me I tried and almost hurt myself. I'm obviously not as strong as Finnick, anyone could see that. My district, the Capitol, everyone is setting me to a standard and that standard is Finnick, the god from District 4. There is no way I will ever reach that standard.

Then they moved on. Nobody else really stood out except the little girl from 11 and the monstrous boy from the same district. Then twelve with the girl volunteering for her sister then the program was over.

I walked to my room and sat on the bed and buried my face in my hands, then tears came.