Not Supposed To Be

~28

I stood in front of a mirror looking at my naked body. Everything was changed. My stomach shrunk, my ribs were far more noticeable than ever before, and the wound on my shoulder was gone. Nothing. Not even a white scar to prove that it happened.

I turned away from the mirror and picked up the pile of clothes sitting on a table. It was the same outfit I wore in the arena. The tan pants, grey shirt, dark green jacket, and black boots. I didn't want to put the outfit back on. I wanted to forget the arena.

I've been in and out of consciousness since I was put to sleep on the hovercraft. I've woken up to tubes in my arm, someone yelling, and then being strapped to a bed and had to eat food that I could not keep down.

Once I got the outfit on part of the wall slid away and revealed Finnick. He was dress in a white shirt and black pants. His hands were in his pockets and he looked so tired. I figured Finnick would be the first person I would see, but I can't face him. He probably hates me.

"Fin." I whispered.

If I talked any louder my voice would have cracked and I would have started crying.

He held his arms out wide and I ran into them. I locked my arms around his middle and buried my head in his chest. His arms wrapped around me and he buried his head in my hair.

"I'm so proud of you. I love you!" He whispered into my hair.

He wasn't mad! He's not mad at me! I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding and tears began to fall. The only time I cried of happiness in the past weeks.

He let go of me and wrapped his arm around my shoulders and lead me down the hallway. He probably wanted to get away for the cameras.

"How's Annie? Is she ok?"

"She's fine. She's happy and wants to see you. But, before that, we need to talk about District 2." He said and squeezed my shoulder.

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I sat in my room of the training center as my prep team swarmed around me to fix me and make me presentable for the interview. Least for this interview I'll be with Cato and not alone. I can't wait to see Cato. I need to see him.

We both are in trouble, with the double suicide plan. Snow doesn't believe our love and also our love is forbidden. He's from 2 and I'm from 4, we were supposed to kill each other.

My prep team left the room and Ace put me in a strapless sea blue dress, similar to the one I wore for the opening ceremonies but without the headpiece, thank god.

Once I was dressed I was taken to the training center, to where a platform was set up to take me to the stage. Annie was waiting by the platform. She was twirling her red hair around her fingers and hummed to herself.

"Annie!" I whispered shouted to not startle her.

She turned and tears began to form in her sea green eyes. She let go of her hair and ran towards me. Her arms wrapped around me and then she began to laugh.

"I missed you!" I said rubbing her back.

"Did you see Fin? He really missed you. He barely slept at all, he was too worried about you. Your boyfriend is really cute." She said letting go of me and kissed my cheek.

Cheering began to pour from above us as Mags appeared to get Annie. It was time for the interview to start. Mags gave me a hug and helped me onto the platform.

As the platform began to reason my hands started to shake. It reminds too much of the games. I squeezed my eyes shut as the voices dimmed away and I began to hear the gong. My breath hitched as the platform stopped and arms wrapped around me. No! I can't go back to the arena!

"Brook, open your eyes.

I opened my eyes to Cato's blue ones. He smiled and I buried my head into his chest. He was dressed in a golden suit. He too wore gold for the opening ceremonies. His mentors were introduced as my hair that was in an elaborate bun fell down around my shoulders.

"Cato." I said and touched my hair.

He threw the pins behind me and wrapped an arm around my waist and he's other in my hair. He pulled me against himself and his lips touched mine. My arms wrapped around his neck and I stood on my toes.

The noise around us faded away and I only was aware of him. His arms around me. His lips on mine. I missed him. I missed his kisses. I missed his arms.

Someone tapped my shoulder and I jumped. The cheering came rushing back and Ceaser stood in front of us smiling. Cato wrapped his arm around my waist as we walked to the couch that was set up.

As we sat and watched the recap of the games Cato kept his arm around my shoulders. It started with the reaping, opening ceremonies, training scores, interviews, then the games. We watched the bloodbath, and me getting my trident and the first time Cato and I kissed.

I moved closer to Cato as the fire started. I watched myself run through the forest, fall down the hill and slam into the rock. Cato rubbed my shoulder as the horrible sound tore from the throat as I watched the fire come down the hill. I never told him about slamming my shoulder.

Next came the tracker jackers that Katniss dropped on us. I watched as Cato fought Peeta as I staggered to my trident while hallucinating. The vision of stabbing Finnick with the trident.

"Why are you screaming for Finnick?" Caesar asked.

I shook my head that I didn't want to talk about it. It was to hard too. I watched myself killed Finnick and Annie half a hundred times. I can't talk about it.

"She doesn't want to talk." Cato said and kissed my cheek.

After watching the games President Snow came on stage with a boy following him. The boy was holding a pillow with two crowns on top. Both were plan gold. He placed the first on Cato's head and then on mine.

The crowd cheered as he glared at us both. The two lovers who were not supposed to be.

The End
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