~ Kaisee ~
It would be very nice if I could stop thinking... just for a bit...
But the text message conversation I had with Mark kept playing in my head over and over.
Like Jennie said, it's best to stay out of things sometimes, but... I'd like to think that maybe this wasn't one of those times.
I regret saying some of the things I said, but I think it only brought us closer, and that's what really matters. The closer the better? I was just overthinking. But I can't stop...
I need sleep, I can't even take a nap after I get home like I did yesterday, since I'll have to help Jungkook.
Maybe I'd drink some warm milk, that'd relax me and I'd be able to sleep better. I pulled myself out of bed and wiped away the thin coating of sweat on the back of my neck and forehead, that happens when I get stressed.
I switched on the lights in the kitchen and started to warm up some milk, which was basically the extent of my cooking skills. I really don't know how I thought I could live here alone for five months.
Eomma said she'd try and get tickets to come here at least once before I go back, that's good. I miss her...
I thought I could overcome that problem pretty easily, since Eomma wasn't home much during the day, and I barely saw her. But I was wrong. The comfort of having her there was something I couldn't ever make up for... she made me feel safe. And honestly, I didn't feel very safe here.
My dumb ass signed up for this.
My dumb ass misses my friends.
My dumb ass needs my mom.
My dumb ass can't do anything about it.
I sighed as I settled down on a chair, stirring some sugar into the milk with a tiny spoon. After drinking it, I went back into my bedroom and closed my eyes.
Sleep is the only solution at this point.
~ Jungkook ~
In all the romance movies, the girl always seems to act all stupid so that the guy feels the incentive to help her.
Now I'm in the opposite position I guess.
Maybe romance movies wasn't the best word... more like chick flicks... my ex loved those. I secretly enjoyed them, just a bit, but I'd never admit that to anyone.................
Anyways chick flicks never seem to have the guy perusing the girl, since the movie is always set in the point of the girl.
I'd totally ask her out. But I just can't...?
I don't know if she likes that Mark guy, or doesn't even want a relationship, but more importantly I don't even know if she likes me.
I could never ask someone out unless I knew they'd like me back. That's why it always came down to the girl "realizing their feelings"... but luckily, getting them to do that wasn't very hard.
But those girls were different. Much different.
And who knows? Maybe she only likes Cali boys? Or maybe she's dating someone at the moment?
