~ Jungkook ~
I ended up getting dragged to a house party in some extremely rich kid's house...
I got so fucking drunk ...dammit... normally Jin always made sure I didn't drink. He knew what happened if I did. Of course I joked about it, but that was an easy way to forget it.
Since that first experience I've never had more than a sip at a time, and that was just a lil bit of champagne at my father's extravagant New Year's party last year.
But tonight was different, I saw things I didn't want to see... felt a way I wished I didn't have to feel and the bottle was right there...
The second I heard Jimin say "I'll be back in a second, don't go anywhere"... I poured a glass full of whatever cheap beer was bought for this party.
Jin's the only one that knows about the particular problem I have when drinking, all the others think it's just because of my terrible hangover. For many people drinking can erase reality, but it works in the opposite way for me.
And my reality isn't all that great.
Tonight......... I honestly wished it never happened at all.
~ Kaisee ~
Mark suggested we go to a party he'd heard of, after we got the ice cream. Or at least he suggested that I should meet him there if I wanted to.
I didn't want to miss that chance, so I told him I'd see him in an hour and a half and I went to go get ready at home.
Of course "get ready" to me means "be presentable" and presentable to me means "look okay with the least amount of effort"
I wore a cool black shirt with this strange asymmetrical criss-cross thingy... it looked interesting, but I felt like I could pull it off today, that tucked into some ripped jeans. Easy peasy, and relatively comfortable.
I tossed my hair around, trying a bunch of different things with it until I decided on a shitload of dry shampoo and some "messy waves" with two little ponytails on the sides of my head. That hairstyle always made my cheekbones look nicer, for whatever reason.
My skin's been real nice these days, so fuck full-face makeup... just a bit mascara and eyeliner would do.
I put on a jacket, in case it got colder later on, and some comfortable shoes... if it was as wild as other parties I've been to, I'd better not take a taxi there.
Walking gave me a lot of time to think... about what I really wanted... about what I wanted to do... and what I wanted to happen...
And honestly I was done second guessing and confusing myself.
Tonight, I get what I want.
~ Mark ~
Welp. I've been thinking for a while.
Kai... Park Kaisee... I wanted her. I wanted her bad.
I don't know when the realization actually hit me, but I noticed it coming along for a while. The way I noticed all the small little things, the way I always seemed to find those eyes in a room of any kind. The way I just wanted to be... hers?
Tonight was the night it would happen. After what happened earlier today in the Cafe, I know it would be easier than ever. So it would happen tonight.
