~ Kaisee ~
It was Wednesday evening, why exactly did I agree on dressing relatively nicely and going for a walk by the river with Mark? Other than the fact that Mark asked....
I mean my homework was done and I felt prepared for the History test I had tomorrow... but I was just tired.
But I also needed that uneasy feeling to fade away. I needed the reassurance that he wasn't really hiding anything. So after a quick consultation with Jennie, who obviously now knew about the situation, I decided to go...
But whyyyyyy—
I googled 'first date' outfits because I have no fashion sense and did whatever I could to pull off the outfit half as much as the girl in the picture. Heh........
I looked good enough. I put on combat boots because fashion, grabbed some stuff and left the apartment. I then took a taxi to the river, found a bench, and sat.
It took a little over five minutes for a beat-up looking blue car to pull up, and a amazing looking Mark Tuan to say "Thanks Jaebum-ie." and come and sit by me on the bench, taking my hand as un-awkwardly as possible. I suppose we were still in that 'figuring out' stage. That bit of time where things were still working themselves out, also were rather awkward.
He brushed his hair out of his forehead and said, in that same relaxing, smooth voice, "Hey." And he smiled
One goddamn word. And my brain was already in a state of meltdown. Where was the girl that went right up and kissed him? Not in me anymore. "Hi" I replied, returning the smile with an added, stereotypical head tilt. Just be confident, we're working from both sides to make this less awkward. No need to be nervous. We were too used to being friends. That's all. It would change. Enjoy the river, enjoy your time with him. It's a break from school too!
A walk was not a good thing for a first date. A walk comes after you're comfortable with the other's presence and certain romantic gestures. I look to Mark and suggest we go see a movie or something, I tell him some cool new movies came out a few weeks ago and I sort of wanted to see one of them.
Mark gave me that look. Not something specific to him, but it was a familiar look. "I don't know," He said calmly, "I kind of wanted to use this time to talk. Get to know more about you... we've only really known each other a month. Even though we've spent a lot of time together in that month, I just wanted to talk. It's kinda hard to do that with Jennie, because I don't really want to make her feel uncomfortable with us, you know?"
I felt stupid for suggesting the movie. But now I had the burden of responding to his heartfelt comment without sounding like an idiot. "Yeah, I guess I feel the same way too."
"Okay. Let's do this the teenage girl way then."
I raised an eyebrow at him.
"With secrets..." he whispered. Mark is very cool when he's confident, he pulls that off well.
"You first then, I guess. We can take turns." I leaned in close, "What have you been hiding?"
"I wish I didn't suggest this now." He said after thinking for a few seconds.
"I'm curioussssss"
