It Will Always Be You

~ You'll Figure It Out ~

Louis decided to watch both the kids and let me go up to my room so I could rest and well pee on a stick.

I paced my room back and forth for a while terrified of peeing on the stick.  After finally convincing myself I went into the bathroom and peed on the test.

The 15 minutes that it took to wait for the test to tell me if I was pregnant or not seemed to take forever. I'm pretty sure that a turtle could walk across the entire country in the amount of time it took for the test to decide if I was pregnant or not.

I took a deep breath and looked down at the test I held in my hands. PREGNANT. I couldn't hardly breathe I just sat there on the edge of my bed.

I wanted to be excited because I had waited for so long but I was terrified. What if I wasn't good enough? What if Michael changed his mind? What if I mess up? How am I gonna handle three  kids if the boys go on tour ? What am I gonna do ? All the unanswered questions here making me insanely nervous. I felt tears start to go down my cheek. I just needed someone to remind me why I wanted this. I needed I be reminded all the good things and not all the bad things that could happen. Michael I needed Michael.
I grabbed my pillow and laid on my bed and began crying into my pillow. I was scared and just needed a hug.

After a few minutes of sitting there crying I felt a little bit better and a little bit of excitement began. I am pregnant. I am pregnant. I laughed lightly and squealed lightly. Michael and I were finally gonna have our own family.

"So what's the result?" Louis said as he came and laid on my bed beside me.

"Promise not to tell anyone?" I spoke up muffled through my pillow.

"Promise." Louis replied laughing.

"I'm pregnant." I replied yet again the sound muffled by my pillow.

"That's great. Callie I'm so happy for you, but why don't you seem all that excited?" Louis asked a little concerned.

"Cause I'm scared, and because the original plan was Michael wasn't going to be gone on tour all the time. He was gonna be here so I didn't have to do it by myself and now. Not only am I pregnant I have to take care of two kids that aren't even mine." I felt the tears begin again.

"Hey hey hey it's ok. One you aren't going to do this on your own, you've got me and so many other people. Two you need to tell Michael how you feel." I felt his hand lightly rub my back.

"Why so he'll quit the band and then I'll know for the rest of my life that I'm the reason he stopped doing what he loved a lot sooner then he wanted?" The tears began to fall harder. I wanted Michael to quit but I couldn't be the reason he stopped doing what he loved. To know that I took away his joy was just way to much.

"Just talk to him maybe you can go on tour with them. A lot of celebrities take their kids on tours and on the red carpet with them. You guys could do that. You just need to talk to him ok?" Louis words where comforting.

We could figure this out. I didn't need to worry. We could figure this out we always do.