Never Knew I Needed

Chapter 58- My Good Girl

Andréas's POV

*One Year Later*

"Hey thanks again- this place is a true success!" The customer said as he handed me the money.

"Yeah, you're welcome. Have a good night." I said.

"Thanks, bye." I grabbed my bookbag and locked up the shop after the last customer left. I got in my car and made my way home. Pablo's auto body has been a success over the past year. More people come here than any other car shop and the money that's been coming in has allowed Pablo to make renovations and still be in a good place financially.

A few months after I graduated last year, Pablo and I became partners for the business and it's been great. Apart from working six days a week, I enrolled in a community college last fall and I'm planning on majoring in business. My classes were difficult in the beginning but I was eventually able to pick up on the pace. Apart from school and work, I don't do much. Ortiz and I have picked up where we left off at fourteen and have became like brothers again...which is a good feeling to have. We hang out when we can, but because he is off staying at some other small university in Sacramento, it gets hard to find the time but it's all good.

Abell remains locked up for now and I've written one letter to him, just to see how he is. I still care for him- he is my dad. He wrote me back with a simple answer about how he was doing. He even asked about Aubrey and Jacob but all I tell him is that they are doing just fine with just the two of them. I've visited often in their two room apartment and they seem to be doing great. Aubrey has a job at a call service with sufficient pay but I still send them money when I can, to keep them secure and just because I care. She seems to be much happier having her son with her and without Abell- I'm glad all things worked out for her.

I still watch Jacob, usually in the evenings when Aubrey is working or is out with her friend, Trevor, from her job. I hope that works out.

Since Le'annaMarie's career took off, it's been hard. She's been non-stop doing big things- her album release which was number one of 2016, talk shows, a tour that she had earlier this year. I'm so glad that she is living out her dream. There are days when I miss her so much more than others and it makes me crazy. We haven't talked over the phone or seen each other but I've written letters to her...many letters. Each one I write is just to ask how she is doing and to update her on my life. Each time I write, I am tempted to confess my feelings for her but I can't seem to get the words out- even if they're on paper. She hasn't wrote me back. It's either she's too busy, she never got them or she's forgotten me. It's hard to even consider that she has but I've learned to be strong without her.

Ever since the day of her graduation party when she said all those things to me about finding strength within myself, it really changed the way I go about life. I am happier and more appreciative of what I have and where I've come from. Sure my mom was never there for me and my dad was never a father-figure and my abuela is gone. But I'm still blessed with an aunt and uncle who love me and great cousins who are awesome. And though Le'annaMarie is not always here with me and we may not be friends like we used to, she is still considered one of my best friends.

I get home and heat up left over pizza I had last night. I turn on the tv and start flipping through pointless reality shows, sports channels and ended up sticking with "Mtv." Most times, I only watch this channel because of Le'annaMarie. She looks so beautiful and sexy in her music videos. I had no idea she could dance like she does- she is crazy good at hip-hop dance. Her song, "You Know I Lie" is played often; it became really popular and reached number one on the Billboard charts last fall.

I'm so freaking proud of her.

Right now, they were playing the top hits of 2017

#2: "I'm the One"- DJ Khaled

This isn't my favorite song but it's nice. I'm not really into much of today's music. I'm more of old school rap and a fan of a few rappers today. But none of them come as close to Le'annaMarie. After, the song ended, they were getting ready to play a new hit.

"Number one on Top Hits of Twenty-Seventeen is "Good Girl" by Le'annaMarie featuring Drake."

"Wow...number one?" I said to myself. I grinned then turned up the tv.

The music video began with Le'annaMarie facing upside down against a white wall and the camera began to turn back right side up as the music played. She was in a tight, long sleeve black turtleneck shirt with black and white striped pants. I love that she can dress modest in her videos, dance appropriately and make clean music and still be the most popular celebrity right now. Her hair was perfectly straightened with a flipped bang over her eye, looking gorgeous as ever.

Verse 1:

"You say that you're down but I know you don't mean it,

You tell me I'm the one but I'm not sure if I believe it.

I can tell you're desperate but you can't keep a commitment.

I take it that you, are only in for one thing.

She gave a sexy smile and winked. Man, she does really does something to me.

I'm not so easy, I ain't down for what you're used to,

You say you have your way but I got somethin' to tell you.

If you want my love, there is something you should know...I'm only gonna take it slow."

Chorus:

" 'Cause I wanna be your good girl.

And I'll only be a good girl.

And I know you ain't used to good girls, but I may be the one you need (ohhh, yeah, yeah)."

Drake sung and rapped the next verse and I have to say, the song was dope. Though, I for some reason got jealous whenever he looked at Le'annaMarie like she was dessert on the table. But if that's his role in the video then whatever. Her lyrics spoke truth about the kind of girl she is- she's not gonna give it up for just anyone and if anyone wants to be with her, they need to be on the same page as her and take things slow. I would do anything for her.

Hook:

"I may not be your type, but I may be the one you like.

You may just be surprised...oh yeah, that there is more than what you see, aye.

I just wanna be your good girl..."

*****

After the song ended, I cleaned up my plate and took a shower and went to bed. As I was laying down, I couldn't fall asleep. I was tired but I couldn't stop thinking about Le'annaMarie. I missed her so much it was agonizing. For a while, I've had this burden on me...wanting to confess how I feel to her. I've made the excuse to Ortiz and my cousins that I'm busy and she is busy but in all honesty, I've just been such a coward about it.

I suddenly got out of bed. I grabbed a notepad, an envelope, a stamp and a pen off of my dresser. I turned on my light and sat against my bed. I had already written a letter to her this month but I couldn't wait any longer.

I began to write about everything I felt for her.

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