That weird kind of feeling

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Last night was pretty great... I couldn't complain really, even though there was no actual sex, he still pleasured me despite what he said about his sexuality. I laid there as the sun rose and coated us in its warmth. My head was on karas chest and my fingers traced patterns into his skin gently. His strong arm was around my waist.

"I see you didn't sleep..." he mumbled and ran his hand though my hair, I purred, quite happy as I shook my head slightly. "Maybe I shouldn't excite you so much before bed..."

"Wait... are you implying that there'll be more?" I couldn't help but get slightly excited at the thought.

"Possibly..." he mumbled and chuckled as I jumped up and sat on his chest, looking at him eyes narrowed. "Shitty matsu if you are fucking with me..."

"I'm not! I swear!"

"Better not be teasing me..." I mumbled and laid on his chest. He ran his hand over my back, seemingly deep in thought.

"So where are we looking next..."

"Uh.. I was thinking that town over past Kyoto... it's full of rice feilds... no one anywhere... I was going to ask for a photo of father to try and ask around who's seen him..."

"That town is a two day journey away..."

"Yeah and father wanted to live there with mother one day... maybe he's there..." I said and sat up. "Come on get ready the train leaves soon. I went and got tickets before you woke up..." k shrugged and he sighed.

"Lets go then..."

I got a photo of my father from my grandmother and thanked her for her kindness in taking us in for the night. We got on the train and I sat at the window again, my knees to my chest as I looked out the window. Kara reached over and wrapped an arm around me... which surprised me slightly.

I leant into karas side and closed my eyes again, fatigue starting to catch up with me. Karas phone buzzed and I opened my eyes as he picked it up. "Hey kou..." he smiled slightly and I glared at the phone. "Sorry I'm on a trip st the moment i don't know when I'll be back.."

"Can you tell me where you are? Who are you with?"

"I can't tell you wgeee I am but I'm with my brother.. we just needed to go away for a while... I'll make it up to you later ok?"

I resisted the urge to gag and ripped myself away from him. I didn't want to cuddle anymore. I got up. "I'm going to get food." I snapped and walked to the dining cart, arms crossed as Kara watched me leave.

I don't know how much longer i could take this.