That weird kind of feeling

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The bleach blonde from my nightmares walked towards us, as sluttily dressed as ever, her platinum hair in a messy bun, a can of soda in her hand. She saw Kara and her face lit up. "BABY!" She squealed and ran over. Kara stood and met her embrace.

I felt my heart slowly break.

"Oh I've missed you so much!" She squealed. "Why didn't you tell me where you were what's with all the secrets?!" Kara looked at me and I looked away from him with tears in my eyes.

"I... came here with Ichi... mister Misaki is... an old friend of the family. Ichi is actually moving here and I'm coming home with you in two days..." he said looking like a prisoner caught handling crack.

"Oh but baby... our train is tomorrow I got them changed."

"What?"

"Out train leaves tomorrow afternoon because I wanted to bring you home sooner. Just like I got the ticket changed so I'd arrive today instead of tomorrow!"

She was a sneaky bitch.

"Babe that's great but-"

"But nothing come on! You're taking me out to dinner tonight!" She giggled and I felt my face heat up.

"But I don't have any."

"I have pleanty of money now let's go before all the good places are taken!" She grabbed karas jumper from beside me and chucked it at him before dragging him off. I just sat there numb before turning and walking inside, tears rolling down my cheeks as I did so.

My father quickly followed me and put a hand on my shoulder. I turned to him and burst into tears, hugging him tightly. So this was what heartbreak felt like? Far worse then when shou cheated on me, far worse then when Kara rejected me. This felt like I was slowly dying inside. As we had finally bonded. Just this morning we had finally come togeather and we're mates. Now he's got his slutty girlfriend back I'm nothing.

"I'm so sorry..." my father said putting his head on mine. "I cannot imagine the pain... unlike me... you had no choice." He whispered. "It's not your fault." He whispered and I sobbed.

I stood there as the sobs died down and I became numb. My heart ached and I felt like noting mattered anymore. There was no point.

"Would you like something to eat?" Father asked and I shook my head. He looked at me and immediately became distressed and dragged me into the kitchen. "Do not think like that!" He hissed and I looked at him plainly.

"Lien what?"

"Like life isn't worth it. It is. Ichi I am your father. I love you. Do not let the last eighteen years, eight months and three days be waisted." He hissed and I nodded softly. "Do not think I didn't notice yesterday." He held my wrist and I looked away. "I don't want you hurting yourself."

"Yes father."

"Now you like cookies do you not?"

"I guess.." I mumbled and looked at the ground as he put his hands on my shoulders.

"Then we are going to make cookies. And we are going to eat icecream. And we are not going to stop until you feel better." He promised and I actually smiled slightly.

"Alright." This is the father I wish I knew all my life.