No Lifeguard on Duty

Trying to Fill Myself in a World full of Emptiness

I wake up with good intentions

I work out to better myself

I've lost 35 pounds now

And my body has taken a better shape

I go to work

Working as hard as I can

Always smiling and trying my hardest

To make some connections

I go to meetups, and chat with people

Always older, never my age.

They are great people

I've made many friends

I spend the weekends

At my local hobby shop

Playing games

And feeling great.

On Sundays I go to church

I pray to god

And sing some hymns

The fellowship is great.

I was told I needed to get out more

To meet someone and be happy

So I do all these things

And never see anyone my age.

I spend nights alone

Reading someone elses work of art

I spend night alone

Swiping left and right

I've become the person

I always wanted to be

I'm happy with who I am

But I feel so very alone

Alone in this world

Where everyone swipes left or right

Where we are always connected

Where I sit in my apartment of perfect things

Never really connecting to anyone.