25. Back to the Beginning

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Sorry the spacing on my new phone is all fucky idk why it does this.

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[ A l e x ]


Jack has been silent for the last few hours, checking his phone every once in a while and staring at the television without so much as an expression. I play nervously with a stray thread from the couch.

As much as I regret my words I don't regret what happened. It's not even the first time we kissed, but something about it was just different. It happened so naturally and it was more than just a peck on the lips. I sigh, my mind swings between 'he never wants to see me again' and 'he didn't push me away, maybe he really does feel the same', though the latter seems more like a false hope.

"Alex!" I look up at Rian who had been trying to get my attention

"What?"

"You alright?" He raises an eyebrow. The three of them are all staring at me curiously.

I nod "Yeah I'm super, I'm just... Super"

[ J a c k ]


I had been pretty sure that we both had feelings for each other. I sure know that I have feelings for him. Maybe it's just not gonna work out that way.

He has cuts on his stomach, fucking red lines everywhere. I did this. I'm stressing him and his family out by being here. I'm the one hurting him. My stomach feels sick.

"Would it be best if I stayed back at my house? My parents will be home in a few days anyway" I ask quietly, not wanting to be a burden any longer.

His expression softens and he shakes his head "No it's no big deal. My family likes having you around"

"Are you sure?"

"I'm sure"


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[ A l e x ]


Tomorrow's Friday. We can make it through one day of school, right?

I plop down on my bed, not caring that my bruised face is smushed against the pillows. Today was exhausting.

"I'm really sorry about the spray paint" Jack blurts out. I crawl under my blankets and try to get comfortable

"It happens I guess" He doesn't respond for a few minutes, must've fallen asleep. Quietly I mumble "Jack are we okay?"

I don't expect a reply. It was a stupid question anyway.

His voice breaks through the silence "Alex, you and me are always gonna be okay"

Those words make my lips curl into a smile. Of course we're alright. I let out a deep breath, my heartbeat speeding up a bit. I wonder if he knows the way he makes me feel. Maybe he doesn't notice that my face turns bright red whenever his name pops up in a conversation, or how flustered I get when he holds my hand. Maybe this is just a dumb schoolboy crush. Who knows.

"You're my best friend" He mumbles and drifts off to sleep.

Best friend. I sigh. Best friends, of course.

"You looked really cute today" I mumble, making sure he can't hear me. I roll over and put my pillow over my head. What a mess.

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