The Party Scene (Jalex)

22. Daydreams

Two updates in one night after not updating for over a month wow

So there is a trigger warning in this chapter sorry sorry sorry

But i love you guys so so much, you're all adorable and if you ever need someone to talk to i'm here *hugs*

[ A l e x ]

We returned to Rians. As we make our way to the basement Jack's phone buzzes multiple times. I lay down on the couch and pull a hoodie on.

Jack takes off his phone case and sets his phone on the couch's hand rest before excusing himself to the bathroom.

His phone continues to buzz every few seconds. Rian looks at me and nods towards it.

"I can't look at his phone" I whisper, though I had been considering sneaking a look at the screen.

"Come on, the noise is driving me crazy" Zack sighs

"If you don't I will" Rian says

I take a deep breath, looking towards the bathroom door to make sure it was still closed. My hands tremble as I pick it up. Twenty new messages.

There's no passcode.

My thumb slowly slides across the bottom.

A bunch of numbers flash across the screen. Notifications everywhere. I tap on the messages app, the source of all the buzzing.

I'm not getting into specifics but all the texts made me sick to my stomach.

The only one that he took the time to read was one that simply said 'kill yourself'

My throat gets all choked up and everything feels very quick and panicked.

"Oh god" I whisper. I rip a piece of paper out of the book closest to me and grab a pen off the coffee table. Rian and Zack's curious eyes follow me throughout the room.

I try to turn the knob on the bathroom door but it's locked.

My usual calligraphy-like handwriting is now shakily written letters.

'Don't listen to them, Jack. You're the best thing that's ever happened to me'

I can't say what I really want to say.

I cant scribble everything out and write in big letters 'I love you'

Taking a deep breath the note is slipped under the door.

"Please open up" I say quietly

[ J a c k ]

I'm not going to die here.

I'm not going to let Alex find me with slit wrists.

Reluctantly I slip the blade back into my phone case and look at the small damage that's been done.

"It's not so bad" I whisper, pulling down the sweater sleeves.

Slowly I open the door, shoving the note in my pocket.

"Jack are you okay?" Alex asks, carefully pulling me into a hug. I nod, wrapping my arms tightly around him. I don't care how bad it makes the cuts sting.

His messy hair rubs against my cheek and I take a deep breath. The scent of his cologne has a calming effect.

"Can we just cuddle?" I ask quietly, hoping he wont make a big deal of it.

"Yeah" He nods.

[ A l e x ]

Jack and I lay on the couch, arms wrapped around each other. Everything feels really warm and soft and okay. And I think maybe this is all I really need.

"Alex?" He asks. His eyes are closed and a small dopey smile plays at his lips.

"Hm?"

My heart pounds. What if he says it?

"Alex..." He says again

"What?" My smile fades slightly

"I..." He whispers before falling asleep against my chest.

Oh

"Jack" I whisper, barely able to hear myself "I love you"