Forever And Always (Kian Lawley)

Chapter 16

I've been staying in my room for two days, I don't get out at all and at least I have my own bathroom in my room so I don't need to go out to take a shower. Kian taught Emily how to jump up to my balcony and they come with food, movies, sweets and try to get me out of the room. But it doesn't work, I feel stuck, lost like the whole world came down and slapped me in the face. I realised I wasn't suppose to be born, that I'm a mistake! Every time I just think about it I cry. My parents knock on my door every 10 minutes checking if I'm ok, asking me to come out but I don't. It was 9am and my parents would have left for work by now, Lillie would be at Monica's house or day care and Sam would most likely be asleep. I slowly opened the door and checked for noises... nothing. Good they're gone. I walked slowly down the stairs, into the kitchen and boiled water "Chlo?" shit. It was Sam, I looked at him, his hair was all messy he looked like he hadn't slept in years and his nose was all red

"Are you ill?" I asked not taking my eyes away from the ground

"No just tired, are you ok? I missed you so mu-"

"I'm fine" I replied. I grabbed a mug and looked at Sam, he looked so upset and my heart broke in a million pieces, I hate seeing him like this. I grabbed another mug and made tea for Sam too. He just sat there nearly falling asleep, "Here" I said handing him the tea

"Thank you" he gave me a weak smile

"Let's get you upstairs, you need to sleep" I held his arm and helped him to his room. He laid down in his bed and I walked away

"Wait Chloe" i turned around "I'm sorry, we're sorry we should have told you" i saw his eyes fill up

"Sam, I'm not gonna say I'm not mad, because I am a lot actually, but whatever just sleep you need to" I wipped the tears from his cheek then walked out

I went to the living room and snow came running up to me "hey baby I've missed you so much" I played with her for a bit until there was a knock at the door "HEY" I was so excited to see Emily, Kian, Connor, Jc and Ricky "come in" they all walked in and Kian stayed outside.

"How are you?" he said holding my hand

"I don't know to be honest, but you didn't tell them..."

"No no of course not" he leaned in to kiss me but I pulled away

"Kian...."

"Right, were waiting" he chuckled

"Just for a bit" I kissed his cheek and walked in.

"You disappeared!!!" Ricky said pulling me in for a hug and before I knew it everyone tackled me to the floor hugging me. I laughed and we got up

"Uhm family stuff I'm fine" I smiled 

"Great! So let's go out! And we need to do a video together, yours and sam's fans have been going CRAZY" Connor said

"Go get Sam and go get ready so we can go somewhere" Jc said, I'm glad to have friends like them with me, I asked Emily to go get Sam, she went upstairs.

"Why don't you go get him? did you guys argue?" Ricky asked

"Something like that" I mumbled. "I'm gonna go get ready.

I walked to my room and saw Emily sitting there.

"How are you actually feeling Chlo?" she asked

"Really, terrible, but whatever" I've always been the type to ignore my problems. Emily went in my wardrobe and pulled out baby blue laced high waisted shorts with a white bow belt, white cropped tank top with a glittery collar, baby blue gladiator sandals. She curled my hair, put on my flower crown and done my make up, powder, mascara and light pink lipgloss "perfect" she smiled

"Thank you, you don't look so bad yourself" I said laughing. I grabbed my phone and money and We walked downstairs and saw all of the boys in the kitchen laughing,

"Hey you guys ready?" Kian said and they all got up

"Where's Sam?" I asked

"Here" he said walking behind me.

"Alright let's goooooo to the arcade" Jc said running out the door, we followed him. We got Ricky's car and realised there wasn't space for all of us

"What should we do?" I asked laughing

"Uhm... Ok it's not that far so uhm...." Ricky said thinking "Ok i'm driving so Sam you sit in the passenger seat and you boys sit at the back and the girls will have to sit on your laps" Sam and Ricky sat at front, Jc in the middle, Kian on the right, Connor on the left, Emily sat on Connor's lap and I sat on Kian's.

"Put the radio on!!" Jc whined, Emily and Connor were talking non-stop

"You look so beautiful" Kian whispered in my ears

"Thank you" I kissed his neck, no one saw. it was my idea to wait before we tell people, since him and Andrea broke up I don't want people to annoy him. We arrived at the arcade and got out of the car and started walking towards the arcade

"Chloe, I'm sorry please talk to me" Sam said quietly so only I could hear

"Just leave it Sam!" I snapped "Ricky can I have your car keys I forgot my phone in there" I asked hoping I could get away from them for a bit, Ricky gave me the keys and I walked away turning in a corner, stopped and cried silently.

"Chloe?" Kian said grabbing my arms "Come on try to cheer up, the guys are getting worried"

"Kian it's hard you know!" I shouted, more tears fell from my eyes

"Chloe please calm down don't be mad at Sam" Kian said

"Seriously? Kian I just found out the boy I've known my whole life who I thought was my brother isn't ! how would you feel if someone came up to you and said 'hey I'm Sam and oh yeah I'm not your real brother, my parents used to hit me when I was a few days old so your parents adopted me since your mum couldn't have any babies oh but then!! Your mum got pregnant and woop dee doo it was you, so basically you were a mistake! you weren't meant to happen!! and hey lemme tell you the best part.... I knew this and you didn't , feel stupid now? oh right and that creepy woman? yes that's my birth mum!'" I screamed bursting out in tears and falling onto the ground, Kian sat next to me rubbing my back.

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