Mad love. (Part one)

I'm a growing boy okay?.

**Trigger warning (self- harm)**

(Josh)

*next day*

My wrist burned from the cuts from last night. I pulled my sleeve down my arm over my cuts. My razor was still on my night stand. I picked it up, played with it for a bit then pulled my sleeve up enough to show my scarred arm. Pressing the blade into my forearm I  jerked it to the side all the way across. Pain shot up my arm then blood rushed easing the pain.

"Josh?" My mother opened the door. I threw my blade and covered my cut.

"Yeah?"

"Lunch" 

"okay" I sighed and got up feeling the burning sensation all over my left wrist and on my right forearm. I walked down the hallway, down the stairs then to the kitchen. 

"Hello" My father patted my back as I made my way to the bag of taco bell. 

"two tacos, two crunch wraps, two nachos and two Pepsi?" I looked at my mother and father. They nodded slowly like "why does he need so much"

"I'm a growing boy okay" Shrugging I grabbed the bag of food and the drink holder with the drinks. I walked out of the kitchen to the front door.

"Where do you think you are going, young man?" Mothers annoying voice echoed through the house. 

"out okay?!" 

"be back soon"

I waved my hand and walked out of the house.  Sometimes I think my mother is unhappy with her life. I mean her son killed himself, her husband has sex with chicks from work and to top it off she has me. Josh the amazing walking freak show. Josh hears voices, see's his dead brother at times, Cuts himself, has horrible anger, depression and wants to kill himself too. What an amazing son she has. I made my way through the woods carefully so I wouldn't drop the food and spill the drinks. Once at Tyler's house I sat down and looked up to his window waiting to see his face peek out.

"Tyler, come on, peak, peak"

"He isn't going to peak Joshua!" Voice number one chuckled.

"Yeah dude wasting your time!" Voice number two laughed.

"Don't call me Joshua!" I growled not looking away from the window. 

"what ever not Joshua" voice number one scoffed.

Doubt washed over me, he won't come out today. he probably got freaked out by me. I looked down and took a sip of my soda, I reached into the bag and got my crunch wrap out, unwrapped it and took a bite. 

"looks good Joshua" 

"Don't call me-" I looked up to see Tyler standing in front of me. He was wearing a black tee and black jeans. I smiled and patted the grass next to me. 

"I got you food" The sun peeked out from behind the clouds causing me to squint. Tyler smiled and sat down beside me. without saying anything.

"Why come back?" Tyler picked up his Pepsi and took a sip. My heart raced as I looked at his handsome face. How he squinted and looked down at his hands made him look even more amazing.

"I dunno I guess I like you" 

"Hm" he started to smile and blush. 

"How did you know my name is Joshua?" I handed him his food, he took the food as he smiled. 

"Thanks, and I dunno I guessed." He giggled and looked at me. God his eyes are so beautiful. I could just kiss him.