Mad love. (Part one)

Damn it Tyler.

*Trigger warning (Some dysphoria) 

(Tyler)

The plate burned my hand from the pizza being hot as hell. I picked the pizza and took a bite as I sat down on the couch. 

"What should I watch?" I reached for the remote and grabbed it, pressing the power button the TV turned on. 

"Snow is coming for us, Starting from the east to west. Snow will start to fall the Monday after Christmas. Be prepared to keep kids from school it will get bad. Next Sally will tell you where to get good deals on food and supplies for this winter storm." The weather man smiled. A Mc Donalds commercial came on. I pressed the microphone button lifting it to my mouth. 

"Rick And Morty" It made a boop noise and Rick And Morty started to play. I love Rick And Morty, it makes me laugh when im down. I heard a knock on the front door.

"Josh?" I quickly put my plate on the couch and ran to the door. I opened it and saw Joshua, He was smiling. 

"Joshua it was so lonely" I heard panting I looked down and saw a light brown husky with a service dog vest on. 

"Her name is Lilly, you can pet her she is a big love bug." 

I gasped and kneeled down to her petting her cheeks with both of my hands, She started to wag her tail and licked my face. I giggled and kissed her cheek, I stood up and walked into the living room. Josh closed the door, Lilly walked to the kitchen sniffing everything. 

"So, I plan on staying until your parents come home." Josh wrapped his arms around my waist resting his chin on my head. 

"Yay. It's so lonely without anyone here." I held his hand. My phone alarm went off blasting Pierce The Veil.

"Testosterone time." I sighed.

"I'll get it where is it?" Josh kissed my cheek. 

"Uh, in my room in the drawer by my bed it's in a black pouch." Josh's arms left my waist, I turned to him and smiled. 

"You don't have to get it." he nodded.

"Yeah I don't, But ill do anything for my boyfriend" He smiled, turned away and walked to the stair case. I scoffed and smiled as he jogged up the steps. I walked to the couch and sat down, Rick And Morty was still playing. I watched the screen as Rick and Morty ran from alien bugs. I laughed softly when Rick burped mid sentence. 

"Here ya go my love" My pouch flopped next to me. I turned my head to see Josh picking up my plate and sitting next to me. 

"You can have a piece." I grabbed the pouch and unzipped it. 

"Thanks" His warm lips kissed my cheek quickly. I pulled out the Testosterone bottle., I pulled the syringe with the needle and my alcohol wipes out. I stood up, pulled my pants off and sat back down. 

"Oooo" Josh laughed.

"Shush Joshua" I blushed deeply as I pulled the needle out of the plastic. Josh's hands reached over me. He grabbed the wipes and opened one. 

"Is this for where you are gonna inject the testosterone?." He looked up at me. I nodded. 

"I also use it on the top of the bottle so it's not dirty." Josh opened the wipe packet and pulled out the tissue, he rubbed it on the top. 

"Thank you, babe" I stuck the needle into the top, I turned the needle upside down with the bottle and pulled the syringe out filling it with the testosterone. 

"Okay, that is done" I pulled the needle out of the bottle and looked at Josh. He opened the wipe packet.

"Where do you do it at?" He smiled softly at me. 

"Here" I pointed at the side of my thigh. He nodded and rubbed the spot, The tissue was wet and cold.

"Thank you" He kissed my cheek.

"No problem." 

I pinched where the spot was slight, put the needle on my leg pushing it in. Once it was in I pushed down on the syringe. 

"Does it hurt" Joshua's voice was soft. 

"Nupe" Once the testosterone was gone I gently pulled the needle out. 

"Hm" 

I zipped up my pouch, grabbed the needle as Josh gather the trash and the empty bottle. We walked to the kitchen and threw the trash away.

"Now what" Josh leaned against the counter. I shrugged and yawned.

"Always yawning" Josh chuckled and walked towards me. I smiled watching him, His hands gripped my waist gently. He lifted me up and onto the counter.

"Joshua!" I giggled as he looked up at me smirking. I wrapped my arms around his shoulders. 

"I'm sorry but your so hot" He bit his lip then leaned towards me. I leaned towards him as our lips touched. I kissed him slowly as he kissed back. My face burned from blushing. He began to kiss rougher. My hands reached up to his neck then to his head, I ran my fingers through his bright red hair slightly tugging kissing back roughly. 

"Damn it Tyler" Josh chuckled as our lips crashed against each other again. My chest felt warm and hot. It felt like a fire in me, Joshua's hands caressed my thighs, he moved them up and down to my butt and knees. His hands sent a shock of pleasure through me.  His hands pulled me closer, I wrapped my legs around his waist as he pulled me off the counter. His hands gripped my thighs so I wouldn't fall. My heart raced fast and hard as Josh soft moans filled my ears. 

"To the couch or room?" Josh kissed my neck.

"My room" My voice was soft and shaky due to pleasure and fear of what he will think of my body.  I don't have boy parts, yes that does not mean im not a boy but what if that throws him off?. My heart sank, Josh carefully walked up the steps. I kissed his neck softly and slightly nibbling. I stopped, Josh was at the top of the stairs. He walked down the hall and to my room. He kicked the door shut gently and begain to kiss my lips. I kissed back then pulled away.

"Joshua" 

"Yes my love?"

"I'm scared" Tears filled my eyes. 

"Why?" He looked at me. concern filled his voice and eyes.

"I... don't..." He looked deep into my eyes.

"Don't have a penis?" His lips kissed along my jaw bone and down my neck. I nodded slowly. 

"Okay, you still are my boyfriend, no matter what you are my handsome tyler" He chuckled I did too. 

"So it doesn't bother you?" I ran my fingers through his hair, His teeth nibbled on my neck. I tilted my head back and gasped from pleasure as he nibbled harder. It kind of hurt but it felt good.

"Why would it" He sucked gently. I moaned softly and tugged at his hair gently.

"I dunno" I smiled.

"Then don't worry Ty" He lifted me, turned himself and laid me on the bed. 

*Ehh sorry for not updating my man is in a horrible hurricane I have had bad anxiety over this and I have been spending so much time with him. we are long distance so yeah. Anyway! thank you for the read guys!. I see you guys in my notifications. It means a lot no one really notices me so this means a lot. Lots of love- ScooterDutchDragon*