Full Of Love

A Step Into The Dark, pt.1

Pete begins to relapse again, and Patrick tries to help him through it. While Pete starts to think he's not enough for Patrick, they end up making a lifelong promise without even knowing it. (1889 words)

A/N: Hello! Sorry, I haven't been posting a lot, it's the normal excuses, to be honest. I just started school and I've been having a bit of writer's block, but I had this saved as a draft and I as I read over it, I realized I should post it. So here you go, enjoy! ~Bailey

"Pete?" I asked, softly knocking on his door because I thought I heard him crying. "Pete, are you ok? Please let me in."

"Yeah, yeah. I'm fine. Don't worry, but please don't come in, not right now." He answered, his voice weak and trembling. I knew he wasn't ok, but if I pressed the matter he might never tell me. I quietly set down in front of my door(which was across from his) and waited patiently.

It was about an hour before he emerged from his room, his eyes red and puffy. I jumped up and hugged him, on the verge of tears from seeing him that way. He had never cried (that I know of) in our entire relationship. 

"Oh my god Pete, are you alright?!!" I half yelled, a single tear falling from my eye as I looked into his glassy ones. 

"No... it's hard to explain, but I think the simplest way to tell you is that I'm relapsing." When he said the last word, I broke into tears, full on sobbing. He began to hold me and tell me it was alright, but I refused to let him do this. 

"No, you're the one that's hurt, I should be holding you and helping you, not the other way around." I choked, trying to control myself, but failing. I sat down in the hallway and motioned for him to do the same. "I'm sorry I'm like this, I just can't stand for you to be hurting like that again. It breaks my heart."

"I know baby, but I needed to tell you, you deserve to know. I thought, for some crazy reason, that you could help me. I know you can't but, just maybe, maybe, you could." He sputtered, tears streaming down his face now. 

"Of course I can! I will do everything plus some to help you get through this, I will not let this get as bad as last time. I want you to know I'm here for you, now and always. Never doubt that, even in the darkest of times, because I will never leave you. Ever. I love you so much." I told him, hugging him awkwardly(we were both sitting on the floor so it was kind of hard). 

"Thanks, Pat, you mean the world to me." He said, silently crying into my shoulder.

We stayed there hugging on the floor for a while, him calming down and me rubbing his back to relax him. When we finally got up, it was time for dinner. After Pete confirmed that he was ok with having the guys over, we called Joe and Andy to see if they wanted to come over and order pizza or whatever. Almost instantly they came over and we ended up ordering Chinese instead. 

"So, how was your day?" Joe asked, finishing his lo mein and setting it down on the table.

"Pretty boring, we just sat around not doing too much. How about you guys?" I answered, lying because I wasn't sure if Pete wanted to tell them or not. He nodded and smiled when I glanced over at him. 

"Eh, same to be honest. We just watched some tv. Didn't have the motivation to practice." He replied, nodding his head. 

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Later that night, Pete came into my room.

"Hey, 'Trick. I'm going to get in the shower, but when I get out could we cuddle? It might make me feel better." He winked, grinning evilly. God, he was too horny for his own good sometimes.