Take a chance on me

Chapter 5

Remembering the Past (part 5)

Alex's POV

"The more I hide it, the more it shows" i said while looking at her eyes.

"I d-don't know w-what are y-you saying?" she said while stuttering.

I looked at her. 

"Don't you understand Louisse?" 

She's not looking at me. 

Are you disappointed?

Are you mad?

"I like you." i said bravely.

"Yeah, of course you like me because I'm your best friend, right?" she said while smiling.

But her eyes? her eyes shows very opposite on what her voice and face does. 

It looks like her eyes is "Hoping for something" i guess?

I got irritated on what she said. Can't she understand? 

"NO!" i answered. 

She got shocked and looked at my eyes.

"I like you. I like you not because you're my best friend. I like you as a person and i want you more than friend." i said while hiding my cracking voice because of nervous.

"No! It can't be! You can't be." she said while looking at the floor.

Why don't you look at my eyes and say those words.

Masokista na kung masokista. I just only want to clarify her true feelings towards me . 

Yeah, I know that Louisse is very straight.  

I was also straight back then

But I'm still hoping for 'us'.

"B-but I-i Like you s-so m-much" my voice is cracking and my eyes is now sweating but i don't want her to see me crying.

" Then stop liking me! I-i'm not w-worth it A-alex!"

She said before leaving me hanging.

She doesn't love me.

B-but why do I feel that s-she also love me somehow. 

Bakit ba lagi akong nabibiktima ni tadhana?!

Tangina naman! Bakit kailangan mangyari pa uli to sa akin?

Masama ba akong tao para laging masaktan?

Bakit ba ikaw pa?

Because of too much pain my knees trembled.

Napaluhod na lang ako.

Nakatungo. Hanggang sa maramdaman ko ang dahan dahang pagpatak ng ulan.