I was so angry.
I was angry with Ana for doing what she did tonight, making us worry about her.
I was angry with Jimmy for leaving me strandard.
But most of all I was angry with myself. I deserved what had happened.
I layed on my bed trying to sleep.
I'd already cried a river of tears, I had no more left.
I was not going to school in the morning, it was Friday anyway, but I could not face Jimmy, there was no way.
I wanted to call him, I wanted to tell him I was sorry, that I missed him and that I loved him.
Tears started again.
I grabbed my phone and called.
"What." he answered.
He sounded so full of hate and that made me cry more.
"I want you to know that I'm sorry and that I love you." I sobbed.
"Go away Lilah." he said coldly and hung up.
I buried my face in my pillow and sobbed.
I'd ruined everything.
I was so stupid, finally I had something beautiful in my life and I'd completely ruined it.
No, I screamed in my head, I was not going to let him go, not without a fight.
Then I thought about the hate in his voice, it was to late too fight, I'd already lost him.
