I had been driving for awhile and thinking about stopping for lunch when my phone went off.
I found a diner and pulled into the car park.
Hey I heard about Jim
I'm coming over.
It was sent from Matt's phone but I knew it was Anastacia.
I'm not home
I sent back.
Almost immediately I got a reply.
Well when will you be home?
I guess I had to tell her.
I'm on my way to grans.
Ana knew where my gran lived, she'd get it.
Sure enough my phone started ringing.
"Hello Anastacia." I answered.
"Lilah what the heck are you doing going to your grans?" she asked me.
So I explained to her that I needed to get away, that I couldn't see Jimmy everyday, that the whole thing was a mess and it hurt.
"Lil, I'm so sorry, but come home." she asked.
"I can't." Tears were running down my cheeks again "I can't be around him, but you can always come visit whenever you want."
"When are you coming home, you make it sound like your not coming home Lilah." she demanded.
"Oh Ana, I don't think I am coming home."
And I sat there crying again, crying because I'd ruined everything.
