Book 3 : Smooth Yet Dangerous Michael Jackson Fan Fic

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Authors note: Guys.... lol. This book has plenty more chapters coming so please be patient. I'm not gonna spoil it but please trust me, but I love how much you guys care though. Makes my heart happy. Truly. You guys are so loyal. But I'm working a full time job and have family issues and currently going through a rough patch so please be patient with my updates. Motivation is hard to find right now.

I've been texting Joe for 3 weeks. This is so weird to me, I mean I've been with Michael since I was 19, I've only been with Michael. Talking to another man makes me wanna vomit, it doesn't feel right but this is just to get my mind away from Michael and in the thought of moving on. I'm finally letting Joe take me out and I'm nervous.

"Do I look okay?" I asked Jennifer. "You look hot. Joe won't be able to keep his hands off you." She said. I took a deep breath looking at myself. "I know this is hard, and you don't have to do it." She said. "I... I wanna do it." I said still not confident. "No matter when you date after this divorce it's not gonna feel right." She said. "I know...." I said.

I walked in a nice restaurant and searched for Joe. I spotted him as he walked over and grabbed my hand gently leading me to our table. "Hey." I said shyly. "Hi. You look amazing." He said genuinely appreciating my looks. It warmed my heart. "Thank you. You look handsome." I smiled as we sat down.

"I feel like I know you but I really don't. Why haven't I ever seen you before?" He giggled. I took a deep breath, "Well I'm not from her but I moved here with my soon to be ex husband." I said finally revealing my divorce to him. "So you're getting divorced?" He asked surprised. I nodded shamefully. "And he's just letting you go? Wow." He said amazed. "No, he faught against it for a while and still is against it. But it's for the best." I said. He nodded, "divorces are hard. I remember my divorce a couple years ago got ugly. Hopefully yours won't end up like mine." He said leaning back. "We won't let it get ugly, were keeping it civil for the kids. We agreed to keep it smooth and civil, were going through his lawyer and that's it." I said. "You think that's a good idea? He could screw you over pretty fast like that." Joe said. "I would go into detail but I really cant. We've already set up an agreement and everything cause if I go another way he gets screwed and then the divorce will get ugly." I giggled nervous. "Did he tell you that?" He asked. "No no no, I went to other lawyers and it was a mess. This is the best way for us. But anyways what happen with your divorce?" I asked. "Fell out of love, she started cheating, I started drinking. It got toxic, never violent but just got ugly and then I filed for divorce and it got uglier. I got weekends with my son's and she didn't want me to have them at all." He said rolling his eyes. "Oh wow. I could never do that to Michael." I said. "Good. It isn't fun throwing kids back & forth." He commented.  "So you have 2 boys?"I asked smiling.  He nodded, " 13 & 15." He giggled sipping his water,  "your kids seem nice. The little one is fiesty." He laughed making me laugh.  We spent the whole night laughing and talking. It was nice,  I couldn't tell you the last time Michael & I connected like this besides having sex. He walked me to my car,  "So does this mean I can take you on a second date?" He asked shyly. I smiled looking at the ground slightly embarrassed. "If you don't,  it's okay.  I know dating after being married is hard." He said.  "No no, I'd love to go on a second date." I giggled. "Great." He smiled. He hugged me and left a kiss on my cheek, & "Call me & we can set something up. I had a good time.  Have a good night."  He said then helping me into my car.

I laid in my bed just thinking about the date. I had fun but in my heart it didn't feel right but it's gonna feel like that no matter what though, right? My thoughts were interrupted by my phone. It was a text from Michael. It said "I know I fuck up a lot but I will always love you and you'll always be my wife." He said. He's been doing this since we got into that fight and he told me I'm the reason why he cheated. I usually don't text him back but tonight I will.
"Nothing you say will fix this. So just stop." I told him.
"I'll never stop." He replied.
"Your just wasting your time. Go to sleep."
"I can't sleep, i cant stop thinking about you."
"Good." I replied.
"How?"
"Now your suffering the way you made me suffer." I texted.
"When I left you, you were mad I didn't want to work through it, now your doing the exact something. Leaving. Not wanting to work through it." Oh the fuck he didn't. I hit the call button, he answered quickly, before he could even speak I lost it,
"Don't you dare compare this to when you left me! You got up and left me! Just left! You didn't try at all. I tried! I fucking tried Michael but you were too blind by your side bitch to notice. You didn't want our marriage, I did but you never fucking change, so I'm fucking done! Done!" I hollered crying. "I'm changing." He stated. "No. You still got that bitch on your tour, in your fucking hotel rooms, in your room." I said.  "I told you-" I hung up. I don't want his excuses.
He called back but I ignored it. He needs to let it go.