The Middle (GxG) (Sequel to The Beginning)

Chapter 65

-LYNN'S P.O.V-

    She's so beautiful when she sleeps, I almost don't want to wake her. But I have to because our kids need to eat and her mom texted and asked for breakfast. Which if it involves bacon..
I kiss her cheek, like every morning I'm awake first. She stirs for a moment before stopping and getting closer to me. She's so cute.
"Jamie.."
"Nn."
"Koala."
"No. I love you." She hides her face in the nap of my neck.
   Oh god... this woman.. save my heart.
"Your mom wants to take everyone out for breakfast."
"Nn."
"Bacon."
   She stirs against me again. "Can we sleep after?"
"Yes, my king. Of course we can."
   She slowly sits up, straddling me. So beautiful. I caress her cheek.
She smiles lightly and leans into my touch.
"My beautiful angel."
    She turns her head slightly and presses a kiss to my palm. I feel myself smile widely. But instantly sad when she gets off.
    It doesn't take us about 10 to get ready, our stuff packed and all.
"Do you want me to carry you, baby?"
"You've got the bags, I'll be okay."
"You sure?"
   I don't know why but I feel like I am rejected... I know I'm not... I just.. am so use to holding her.....carrying her... it feels... weird.
"You're not rejected. Relax, Ly. You can carry me later, I promise."
    I bite my lip and nod.
"And don't do that. We have places to go."
"Sorry."
"Ly?"
"Hm?"
"I'm okay today, alright? I feel good right now."
    I smile wryly and nod.
"Ly.."
    Her hands cup my face, forcing me to look down at her. She's so adorable, in my beanie. In my hoodie... so adorable.
"What's wrong?"
"I don't really know.."
    ...I guess my worry is coming back.. it's like a tide that always comes and goes on a beach... always has it's highs.. And it's lows.
"Please stop worrying, Lynn. I'm okay."
     She stands to her tippy toes and lightly kisses my lips. I kiss back for a moment before a knock at the door slowly pulls us apart.
"We're going."
"I'll see you guys downstairs."
    I sigh lightly.
"Let's go eat.. so we can go home. I'm tired."
"Okay, Koala."
    She grabs my hand and interlocks our fingers. We walk out. Everyone piles up and we all start our journey to breakfast.

"So Ly asked me to prom the other night."
"She did?" Dee looks at me.
"Yeah. Took me to the path and everything. It was really sweet."
    I nod.
"She got me chocolates and roses. Blue. Blue roses."
"Those are your favorite. Lynn did good." Zee smiles.
    Rose looks uncomfortable. I text her.
~You didn't ask her yet, did you?
~I was planning on it tonight, actually. But now I feel if I do it's because Jamie said something. -Rose.
~Oh jesus. I'm sorry.
~You didn't know. -Rose.
     I felt bad continuing the conversation but I don't want to interupt Jamie. Her speaking for this long is a blessing. Her hand squeezes mine.
    Something is wrong.
"Anyway.. I don't mean to be rude. But I'm really tired." She turns to look at me. "Can we please leave? Carry me?"
"Yes, yes. Of course."
    I get up and bring her into my arms. Her hold tight on me.
"I'm sorry guys. I'll text you all later."
"Bye, guys."
    I wave to them, they wave back and we leave. Once in the car, my worry kicks into overdrive.
"Is everything okay? Are you hurting? Jamie? Plea"
     She stops me with a kiss. Shocked... for a moment..before I can kiss back. After a few smalls kisses she pulls away.
"I have a small headache and I'm tired of my sister." She pauses... "which you already know twin thing is real."
FUCKING KNEW IT. I FUCKING KNEW IT.
"Yeah, yeah, yeah. You knew it. Calm down." She sighs. "Anyway. She just heard me and if we don't leave now she's going to run out here and try and kick my ass."
I smirk. "You got it, baby."
    I start my beauty and roar out of there to home.

"Take something, please? I can't handle seeing you in pain."
"I am. Relax, babe. I'm on it."
    I nod. I feel bad for hassling her about it but it scares me.
    I strip and lay in bed. She takes some meds and climbs on top of me. A big sigh comes from her.
"What's wrong?"
"I..I was sort of still awake. But asleep. Like paralyzed in a way. After my sessions puking stage. I heard you talk with your dad."
    Suddenly, my heart dropped.
"He's right. I fight for you. But Ly, I won't give up. I'm sure your mother didn't either. And I will be more than honored to face the mother of an angel one day. But don't worry, okay? I'm fighting as hard as I can."
    I.. feel... Burning tears..
    She leans up, somehow knowing I am crying, she wipes my tears.
"I want to know more about her, whenever you are ready. Don't cry, I didn't mean to make you cry. I was just saying that he was right that I fight for you and without you, I would have given up already."
    I bring my hand to her cheek again and caress. My beautiful baby. I am ready.
"She is a goddess. She was never meant for this world, Koala. She would always give and never expect anything back and if she did get a gift back, she would cherish it like it were from the heavens." I smile. "She was beautiful. Always could brighten your day by one small look in her eyes. Her eyes much like yours. Deep as oceans but light, very light." I picture her. "She always smelled like roses. She always had the most warm of embraces. And always told me one day I would meet a love that would feel the same or better. She was right because I met you."
    Her smile bright to my words, her soul sitting in the center of her eyes, listening to each word.
"If you had a bad day, she would just hold you until you felt better, until you felt safe again. She would fight any demons that ever crossed paths with anyone. She helped more people than anyone could count. Like your mother, Koala, she works at a hospital. She worked well with her hands as a surgeon, never once did she let a patient go. If they couldn't fight for their own lives, she would fight for them. She is a hero to me. A goddess that was sent here to help."
    I.. choked.. for a second..
"When she got sick, things didn't change. She was still bright, though the light slowly faded within her eyes. Over time, a short period, her illnesses took her home. She came to my dreams. Told me to be happy that soon I would find my soulmate and things will be okay."
    Her thumbs brush away my fallen tears.
"She is always here for me, even if I can't see her. And I know she is protecting you because she knows I wouldn't be able to take losing you. I tried.. suicide.. after. And when I woke up in the hospital, stomach hurting and dad's eyes... as soon as I saw the look in his eyes, I swore to him and her I would never try again. If I lost you.. they know I would though."
    Her eyes fill with shock, sadness and worry.
"There is a goddess that went home to make sure things are perfect for my arrival. There is a goddess that watches over me every moment I need. And this goddess, her name so beautiful, Amara. And Amara, the goddess... She was not meant for this world. Her love was used, abused but yet she still gave all she could. My dad loved her with all his heart and when I came along, he only loved her more for bringing a gift into their life."
    I smile, her eyes soften.
"She sounds so beautiful."
"She was. Her eyes. The way her hair would always curl, yet she would hate it. The way she held herself together would make anyone think of her as highly as I do."
"She just sounds so beautiful. I wish I could have met her."
"Oh she would have loved you. Loves, I'm sure. You have so many angels on your shoulder, Jamie. And a goddess protecting as well."
     Her smile only seems to grow. I feel myself smiling. I'd like to think she is listening now. And I would be right.
"I will walk with you down the path less traveled, we will meet our parents at the end and be together even beyond death."
"I pray so."
     She leans down and presses a soft kiss to my lips. I kiss her back before she pulls back and lays back down.
She is tired. I am too. I do what I do best and coax her to sleep.
"Jamie." I whisper.
    She only hums to me in response.
"Jamie" I whisper softer.
"Mm."
"Jamie..." I whisper a last time.
"I love you, Ly."
"I love you too, baby."
More than you shall ever know.