The girl I've known since we were babies stands in front of me
Her crooked grin seems familiar but, the rest of her is gone
My heart grows heavy and my eyes sting with tears
As I see the one I looked up to,
the one I trusted
Shrivelling away in the light of day
Slowly slipping from our grasp
Sinking farther and farther into a black hole of despair
Her once beautiful golden hair has been died numerous times
Leaving it dry and falling out
Her pearly white teeth, stained yellow
Her eyes darker
Her bags evident against her pale snow like skin
Her body has been mentally and physically taking a toll
From the abuse that she put it through
IS putting it through
Her breath reeks of the poison she takes
The side effects pushing her into a deep depression
The scars on her wrists are constant reminders
That this girl standing here may seem fine
But she's really not
And I shake as I watch her dance happily
Because I know what she does
I know that she struggles
That she doesn't want to stop
Because she likes it
Because she doesn't want to
Everyday she goes farther away
And leaves me to wallow over her dying body
I miss the old her so much
And apart of me wants that back
wants her to come back
Another part wants me to ignore the fact
Ignore her lies and her fake smile
Cut her away
But she is family
And I won't turn her my back on her
Like so many others have
I have to make sure that she comes back
That I see the old her again
That her smile comes back to her
No matter what
So through my shaky breaths
Through the negative voice in the back of my mind
Through the racking sobs that I refuse to let loose
I embrace her and let her know that I believe
Believe in her
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A/N
If anybody is struggling with depression or addiction, I'm always open to talk, Open Arms. Even over the silly things!
Dedicated to my cousin Abbie. I BELEIVE in you, no matter what...
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Sad Souls
PoesiaThings I never had the courage to say aloud but wrote down instead, hoping that one day another soul like myself would come across it; hoping that someday someone could relate and be able to say 'I am not alone.' ♡Poetry♡ (Cover wasn't drawn by me)
