We go on in five minutes and there's a bigger crowd than we've ever played for. My heart is beating so quick I feel like it's going to beat out of my chest. I want Andy but I'm still upset over him yelling at me. I know it's like I'm over reacting but I hate when people yell at me. Especailly when it's your boyfriend and his ex Is crying.
Shay gives me a tight hug.
"I can't wait to play Scars." Shayla mumbles in my ear. I smile and squeeze her.
"It'll be amazing."
"Okay, you guys are up!" Billie says to us. I watch as Kasey, Blade, and Erika step onto the stage. Screams emerge from the crowd. I step onto the stage making more kids scream as I walk over to my guitar. I smile at all the screaming kids sitting my backpack onto sidestage and pick my guitar up. I throw it over my shoulder as Shay comes up on stage.
***
"We're going to slow it down a bit now, this song is called Scars." Shay sits the mic in the mic stand holding tightly onto the microphone.
"Those scars on your wrists are the mark of the world
An ocean that's left you so torn
But remember the heart you brought into this world
The same one as when you were born." I start singing after that for my part.
"How confused you must be
Finding love in the blood that you bleed," I squeeze my eyes shut singing my heart out.
"But the truth is that I see
Why you say that 'it's hard to be me'
And we all make mistakes
Its not you, but this world you should hate
You're as beautiful as you were yesterday
And those tears in your eyes are the product of lies
You've been lead to believe that they're true
But remember the light you brought into this world
I promise it will get you through
How confused you must be
Finding love in the blood that you bleed
But the truth is that I see
Why you say that 'it's hard to be me'
And we all make mistakes
Its not you, but this world you should hate
You're as beautiful as you were yesterday."
The crowd screams and hollers as I breathe heavilly. This song is very emotional for both Shay and I. We both used to self harm when we where young. We both know how hard it is to overcome the power of the addiction. I will never self harm ever again, no matter how shitty my life gets. That is a road I never want to go down again.
"This next song you my know, if you do sing along." I start playing the guitars for Smells Like Teen Spirit by Nirvana..
***
"How much are the CD's?" A girl that looks about 15 asks. She's been sitting beside our merch table with her mom.
"They're seven bucks." I smile at her. Since we're not that big of a band yet we don't have any merch sellers yet so I'ts my shift at the table. We have two shirts, a hoodie, and our CD. Most of the money put into it was thanks to Kasey and Blade.
