My fingers quickly type the number that I remember by heart into Andy's phone. My thumb hits the call button, making the phone ring. I hold the phone up against my ear waiting until I hear a hello.
"Hello, Chris?"
"Yeah, who is this?" He replies, sounding very confused.
"This is Seya." I say afraid that he's going to hang up.
"What do you want?" He sighs a bit.
"We need to talk, please. My heart is hurting without talking to you or seeing you. I miss you so badly. I don't get to see my Chrissy anymore." I say and mumble the last part.
"I heard you and Andy where back together, really sounds like you miss me, Seya." He says sarcastically.
"I know you're angry, and you have every right to be. I don't blame you at all but I don't want you to dissapear like I did from Andy. I love you with all my heart, but I guess in a different way than I love Andy. You knew I still loved him, you can't deny that. It's no excuse but I waited for so long.
"You heald me, Chris, you fixed me and made me a better person. While being around you I grew up drastically. If you weren't there I'd probably be dead right now, you saved me so much times and I will never be able to repay you for that. I love you so much, Christopher, you where my knight in shining armor. You still are, you're my only hero Chris. Nobody else saved me the way that you did. I need you in my life and I don't care what anyone says, I do need you, so much. I won't be able to survive without you, I can't." I take a small break then continue talking. "You're more than a friend to me, you're like a brother, yeah I guess we did things that aren't brotherly and sisterly things that they do but that stuff helped me get through what I was going through. I guess not my brother now that I think about it. You're kind of like, like a person that knows everything about me, that I love to death, much more important that a brother but not eneough to spend the rest of my life with in a relationship. I love you so much Christopher, I really hope you know that. I can't imagine my life without you. I really hope you understand." I hear him sigh again making me a bit nerveous.
"I do understand and that's why I forgive you. I knew you still loved him and it was stupid of me to think that we'd be together when you found him. But, the only reason I'm forgiving you is because I lvove you, if you ever need to talk or need a place to stay I will still welcome you with open arms, but if Andy breaks your heart again I'm not going to be the rebound, do you understand?" Thank fucking hell.
"I understand completly, I love you Chris."
"I love you too, Kitty."
He hangs up after that. I sit Andys phone on my lap and take a deep brethe. I meant everything I said to him and that's really why it hurt so badly when he broke up with me. I do love him in more than a friend way, but I love Andy more.
"Andy?" I ask out and walk out of his room to see him laying on the couch.
"Hello beautiful." He says smiling to me. I walk over to him and lay beside him, cuddling up to him. His warm lips meet my forehead sending tingles all the way throughout my body, starting from my head all the way down to my toes.
"I still haven't called Shayla." I mutter grabbing his hand and playing with his fingers. I can feel him smiling, that might not make sense but his head is on my head and the way it moves tell me he's smililng.
"Do you want me to call her and tell her?" He asks.
"I'm afraid, I was afraid to see you when I came here, and I saw you. You told me terrible news. What if the same thing happens? I can't handle it." I whisper pressing his hand to my heart, I don't exactly know why.
