We sit in a field of flowers as the breeze slightly brushes over my skin. I sigh in content letting my eyes fall closed as Andy slowly slides his fingers down my sides. I smile at the tickly, yet heart warming feeling I get from what he's doing.
Andy and I got married 5 months after he proposed, we didn't have a huge wedding, it was pretty small. But nontheless it was the most amazing day of my life. We decided we're not going to have children because of the craziness of our lives and also because I don't want the child taking my mental ilnusses.
We tour a butt load. I never go on tours that aren't with Black Veil Brides and Andy always brings me on BVB's tours. Sometimes I don't play at the shows because I'm not supposed to but sometimes Andy makes me.
Our lips brush against each others in a loving way. My heart beat quickens still not getting used to the fact that he's my husband and that he's my one and only.
I am still in a one person band, still writing and making songs with the help of my loved ones. They also sometimes appear in my songs. The ones that mostly help and appear Chris, Devin, Juliet, Shayla, Joel, and Blade, sometimes others. Andy refuses to help me write songs because he says he loves the suprise they bring him. I did sing in a few BVB songs though, Jake also helps with some of my guitar stuff.
I burry my face in Andy's chest turning myself around in his lap.
Blade moved in with us a couple months ago. He is my tour manager and goes with us on every tour that I do and that Andy does. He refuses to leave my side when I leave California or even LA for that matter. He's really protective over me after I told him what happened. I think he'd still be protective even if I hadn't taken the pills.
Andy's small tattooed arms make their way around my now getting bigger waist."
Ashely and Shayla are still inseperable. Shayla and I have a girls night every Friday I'm home from tour. She'll sometimes ride with us when we have shows in Cali. We call each other every night though to see if the other is alright. Kasey, her son, is the cutest little boy I've ever met. Shayla asked Andy and I to be his god parents and we happily agreed.
I breathe in Andy's scent, vanilla and smoke like always. The perfect mixture to my perfect boy.
Every tour I go on we drive through Idaho or play shows and visit Kasey's grave and sometimes his parents. We talk, cry, and smile at the memories of our lost love.
Andy's lips touch my head sending those butterflies flying around my stomach.
Chris, Josh, Ricky, and Ryan all moved down to orange county meaning that I see them almost everyday when I visit Chris. Chris and i spend a lot of time together, we talk about life and the weird twists. He got a very gorgeous girlfriend. she's beautiful and amazing. Chris and I cuddle a lot when we're together. Andy and Erika(Chris's girlfriend, not the Erika that I knew) don't mind that we do, they both understand we have to to keep me sane.
My tattood fingers find their way to Andy's tattood fingers, twining theme together. It's just like they're puzzle pieces that fit perfectly together.
I go to therapy once every two months for my symptoms and go to a doctor every six weeks, obviously when I'm not on tour. I also got diagnosed with anorexia, bulimia, and social anxiety leaving me with taking multipe pills. That's why I go to the doctors to get a medication check up.
Out gold bands shining brightly in the light of the sun, my engagment ring shinging brightly also making me smile.
I use the internet again but have a new twitter and instagram. I block everything that has to do with hate. Even though I have private accounts I sometimes let fans follow me. I only follow the loves in my ife which are Andy, Shayla, Chris, Devin, Kylie, Blade, Juliet, Balz, Ashley, Ricky, Jessicah, Ryan, Allie, Jake, Ella, CC, Ashley, Jinxx, and Joel. I also follow Kasey's old instagram and sometimes just scroll through the photos smiling.
