FORLORN | JIKOOK

006 ─ uncertainty

enjoying a lovely milkshake while preparing a chapter for my lovely reader♡

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Jeon Jungkook

I was feeling sort of confused. Whenever Yoongi had mentioned that I was missing something— or, everything, apparently—, and I couldn't stop thinking about it. I asked him to explain more, because nothing made sense to me. But he said that it wasn't his place to say, which only bothered me. What would be so bad to the point where he couldn't even tell me? Thinking about it made me remember whenever I was still with Jimin, and Taehyung had thought that Jimin and I had had sex— which we didn't! And while I was in the car with Namjoon, he suggested that maybe Taehyung was jealous, and alongside that, Taehyung told me a bit before that happened that whatever he was going through, he couldn't tell me because there was no way I could help.

So, apparently there was something going on— that was supposedly still going on—, that everyone else already knew about. So, why didn't I? What was I missing? Was it something they all talked about, or did they just all manage to pick up on the situation? I was so clueless, and I had been thinking about it for days. While Taehyung and I prepared to leave for Gwangju, I kept wondering. I couldn't stop thinking about it, and I desperately wanted to ask about it. But if it was a bad thing, wouldn't it be a bad idea to bring it up while we were trying to feel relaxed? I wasn't sure what to do, but I just knew that I really wanted to talk about it. But I decided it would be best to try to stop, and maybe bring it up afterwards or something. Taehyung needed time to feel refreshed and so I was going to keep it to myself.

That being said, we were currently in a plane. Taehyung and I sat side by side, and I was beside the window. The sky was gorgeous with clouds and different shades of blue, and I smiled softly at the lovely sight of it. "Are you excited?" Taehyung asked from beside me, and I turned my head towards him at the sound of his voice. My smile faded once I parted my lips curiously, and looked at him to see him looking out of the same window I was. His elbow was resting on the armrest, and his cheek was lightly pressed against his hand. "Yeah, I am. Are you?" I said, in which his eyes peeled away from the window, and he glanced up at me with calming eyes; his eyelashes pressed against his skin because of the way his eyes looked up. "Yes." He smiled. I smiled back at him, but it didn't last very long. And then I remembered how he said he was interested in Gwangju, and curiosity sparked inside of my chest, and I felt my throat bubble with a few questions.

"What exactly are you wanting to do in Gwangju?" I asked, and he tilted his head slightly at the question. From the look in his eyes, I wasn't sure if he wanted to go just because he thought it sounded nice, or if he had a few particular things in mind that he wanted to do. But he was interested in the question, and wether he had a few things in mind or not, it was too late to turn back from the trip. "Well, Jungkook," he started, "there are a few things that seem interesting. Like museums and gardens and all.." He explained, and his eyes lowered as he did so. His eyes gleamed with deep focus, and it appeared as if he was trying to remember everything. "And it's a city, so there are interesting things there, you know." He glanced back up at me, and I smiled as he did so. "And you like cities, don't you?" He smiled kindly, and I felt a happy feeling swelling in my chest at what he had spoken. He was right, I liked cities. I enjoyed walking through them, and trying different cafés and restaurants. It was probably one of my favorite parts of traveling to different places.

I nodded, and my lips parted, showing my teeth through my smile. "Yes, I do." I felt excitement ripple through my skin, and I felt my stomach becoming empty with hunger for treats and drinks from the different cafés. Talking about it only made me feel happy, and I found myself feeling a strange kind of enthusiasm that I didn't have beforehand. I guess I accepted the offer because Taehyung was excited for it, but I didn't really feel much energy thinking about it. But I guess I just wasn't considering the things that we would do that I would like. But once we started to consider those things, it didn't seem too bad. It wasn't just a "nice idea for Taehyung" anymore, it was something I was excited for, too.

The more we talked about it and discussed things to do and places to go, I felt myself becoming even more excited. And Taehyung noticed, and was pleased to see me so enthusiastic for the trip. He joined in with the energetic talk, and soon enough we were both blabbering on and on about exciting ideas. The time seemed to pass quite quickly until we both ended up falling asleep happily. And with those thoughts and ideas in mind, I started to feel like, maybe, it would be a really good trip, after all.

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Everything seemed to be moving quickly, because before I knew it, Taehyung and I had ended up landing and finding our hotel. It was late at night, and we were both feeling extremely drowsy, but at the same time energetic due to our arrival. Though, the moment we entered the hotel, I just wanted to fall onto the bed and allow sleep to engulf me.

And by the bed, I mean a single bed.

Whenever Taehyung and I were buying our room, we thought it would be a bad idea to buy more than one bed. Though technically by we, I mean me. It was my idea. Taehyung thought it would be better if we both got our own beds, and stated that he didn't want to make me uncomfortable, especially since I never had my own bed at home, but I didn't mind. I was getting used to sharing a bed again. At home in the apartment, Taehyung suggested just sleeping in Jimin's room, but I told him I didn't want him to. I mean, just because I'm going to get comfortable in it soon, and so he didn't need to. Plus, he already had his own room so it didn't matter. But since we already shared a bad in our home, there surely wasn't anything wrong with sharing one in a hotel, either.

"Are you planning on taking a shower?" Taehyung asked while sitting on the edge of the bed, and looking up at me with heavy looking eyes, yet the gleam in them was bright. "No, I'm feeling fine so I'll just take one tomorrow." I sighed and pressed my hand on my hair, ruffling it gently while my eyes lowered to the floor. Taehyung nodded his head, and his gaze lingered on my figure intently. "Alright, Jungkook. Don't stay up much longer. If you're feeling up to it tomorrow, we can walk through the city." He stated, and a smile instantly spread across my cheeks. My eyes turned towards his, and I beamed excitedly at the idea. The thought of it made me impatient to get into bed, and I begged inwardly that I would be able to get a lot of good rest so tomorrow I would feel energetic.

I was excited to walk around the city, and wanted to do it as soon as possible.

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i didn't post this for several days bc i thought i was gonna add more to it, but there was nothing to add lmao sO this could've been posted sooner // sorry for a shorter chapter

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