✔ GONE BY [I'm In love]

Chapter 38| Something

[JI-EUN]

I miss everything about him.
His delightful smiles... his wonderful round eyes... his heavenly presence and his voice.

This is another day of loneliness again. My eyes already had drought because of too much releasing of tears. I feel so empty and lost. It's all my fault why I ruined a person's life and a siblings' relationship.

The old times when I was still alone in this house suddenly were brought back. But this one is a way worse than before. I've done stupid things in that particular moment of time when I already have a special someone to stay with.

The person who was slumped on the sofa, watching TV while drinking a milk chocolate drink. Or a sleeping handsome pale guy who broke in like a stranger whose purpose was just to get a fine forty winks.

How'd I get everything back again?

Even I asked a lot of questions, I think I already know the answers. This was just all about me. I want to do something, but I can't see what to do anymore.

I prevented their friends to drop by here the other day because I'm really not feeling well. It's been three days since I was stuck on my bed. I thought I already got the courage the day I talked to Yoongi-- but it all just went wrong. Worse... worst...

Yesterday, I visited the school. Even I supposed to have classes the previous day, I excused myself instead. My Co teachers  were even worried for me, but I told them I can handle this. I've also known that the kids were asking some things about my absences.

When I just came out the school, the child, popped me up to ask something about a certain person. I never thought I'd get that response too.

I pulled up my hood and poked the kid who's lately playing along with his friends.

"Hey Jeong."

He jumped a bit, and remained in shock spotting me in front of him. I gave Jung a smile, and kneeled afterwards.

"Teacher!"

He embraced me so tight and I caressed his hair.

"How are you kiddo?" I asked, releasing from our tight hug.

He wiped his sweats and smiled.
"I'm fine, teacher. Where have you been? Why aren't you around yesterday?"

As I witnessed his forehead scrunched, I sighed to start an explanation.

"I'm sorry I wasn't able to come, Jung. I was actually not feeling well."

Jung pinched my nose lightly and patted my shoulders.
"Why? Are you sick?" I nodded my head. "My mom tells me to rest when I have a fever. You should do the same, teacher."

I smiled, squeezing his small hand.
"Of course, roger that." I looked down, remembering something to assure aside from my excuse. "Uh, did you see your Jungkook hyung?"

Jung fumbled something in his pocket and later puts out a folded paper.

"I didn't. But I knew he came here yesterday to give me a letter."

Even I wanted to read it, a part of me stopped me from doing it, thus, I just asked him instead.

"What did your hyung say?"

Jung's mouth started to move. But this indescribable thing playing tricks in my mind was mind blowing. I knew it was just my imagination, but I treasured it.

Instead of hearing Jung's voice, I heard Jungkook's voice filling my mind saying:

"Hello. I miss you. How are you doing? I want to see you and play with you, but unfortunately I have some things to do first. Take care, and stay healthy, arasseo? Don't forget to be positive, and always carry a smile on your face. Jungkook loves you,