✔ GONE BY [I'm In love]

Chapter 55| Farewell

[JUNGKOOK]

Everything was still fresh and new. I'm alone, lonesome and quiet. All I can do is stalk, and stay hidden all the time. I never came back at her house anymore. She needed to forget me, and begin a new life.

How about me? I don't know what to do with me life. I had spent the night at our old hideout until noon and woke up with my eyes getting so puffy. Their scents kind of reminded me, when I was staying there. I could've seen my brothers still playing with each other inside but as I blinked my eyes, everything had gone. It was just like a quick dream and it's far the same with the reality now.

I can't help but cry and cry whenever I remember them. I wish I  could see Namjoon hyung sitting on the windowsill while reading books and play with his fiery red hair. I hope I can still tease Hoseok hyung about his smell and perform a freestyle dance with him to please the others. I wonder if Jin hyung was still alive, he will always give me money and treat me whenever and wherever I want. I could've still felt a mother's love in him.

Sometimes illusions bring me back to our old times. I should've been bullying Jimin hyung again and again and lately apologize to him as he goes to sleep. Whenever I open the drawer, drawings and papers recall me about Taehyung. If he was still by my side, we could have play and cuddle all we want all day long.

What's more if my Yoongi hyung sneaks beside me and hug me at mornings? It could've be more fun if we had slept together. I really miss his smell, his sweet eyes, his deep cold voice and his comfortable embraces.

I can never bring that all back again. What am I planning with my life now? If I killed myself, I will finally see them again.

But another thing. Ji-Eun was still in my mind. I had kept my eyes on her when she walked out her house the next day. I followed her.

Then... I knew what she's gonna do.

The children fetched her at the doorstep and eventually I again spotted the smile on her face. Even though she wears that delightful  face, there's a feeling inside me that pain and sadness were grounding behind her sweet eyes.

After using the children and the teachers as hostages, it's a good thing to see them go back to normal again now. In fact, I wanted to hug the children because I missed them so much, but... I just can't.

"Teacher! We missed you so much!"

They all shouted.

As usual, Soo and Jung came over and asked a question that made her frown.

"Teacher! Where's Jungkook hyung?"  Jung shook her hand but she was left astounded.

"I haven't seen Jungkook oppa and Yoongi for so many weeks!"  Soo added.

The excitement in her face quickly faded as she decided to erase her empty expression.

"They needed to leave, children." She said.

Afterwards, all the children chattered. I can see the sad emotion in their faces and somehow I felt guilt and anguish.

She cleared her throat.
"Um, I gotta see Ma'am Lim. Be right back kids."

She went in and proceeded inside the room of the head. As she twisted the doorknob, she fumbled out a folded paper and sat in front of her office desk.

"Good afternoon Ma'am Lim." She greeted.

The woman's face was emotionless. It appears like she doesn't matter at all. Her thick eyebrows twitched while Ji-Eun sighed.

"I'm here... to give you my resignation paper."

-
I didn't expect her to leave her job. I thought it was what she wants, and it was the one that makes her happy. She even chose that job over her family. It's a big loss for her and I regret about that.