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Chapter 19| Talk Over

[JUNGKOOK]

The one that happened last night was still in my mind, and I don't know how to handle it anymore. Now my brother Yoongi is back, I don't know how to cope up with things. What am I gonna do to him? He's back, and how was he living?

He's the one who has been sending blood packs to me, and I wonder how does he get it. I can't even understand how he watches me and I'm even confused if he's the one who's been watching me through the bushes. But I have a feeling he was always not that, some sneaks around are really suspicious.

I'm...somehow happy he's somewhere staying with me. Now that I feel I never live alone with Ji-Eun and brother, I want to proceed sustaining this peaceful life. But how can I do it if my brother's a vampire too? And I don't know how he's doing around bringing those fangs with him. What if he tried feeding on Ji-Eun? And on everybody else?

We've witnessed how he brutally killed my slayer.

Nah. But no. He mentioned last night that the woman I used to live with might be involved in danger-- in that case, he still has regards with the people around me. Not bad. He won't do anything bad then.
I'm thinking of a way how to approach him again. I want everything happy, forgetting those nasty memories in the past.

We've both made mistakes. It was like all the mistakes are pinned onto him deeply, but I knew I had mistakes too. I just don't want to know it because it's hard to admit it all. Brother and I are gonna get better sooner as this continues. We have to talk things over so we can find our comfort zone in each other, we just need time for each other. Okay time again.

I wanna make out things with him as soon as possible, so he can live with me in a peaceful life--where there are no killings and triggering of guns because it feels good to be apart with the troubles. You don't bother to worry for anything.

Even we were okay that previous meeting, the thought of his comeback remains an unsolved puzzle to me. Since he's the one who fanged me, he's also responsible with this. But he says he's my brother, but there's another thing aside from that and I have to figure it out.

I learned how to live life positively, and I know I can get over things out even there's a piece from the past that came back to slowly reminisce it all. Did I blame him of doing those all? By judging him?

I slapped the truth of his rebellion touching larger matters in our life, and I think...
I don't know.
I'm just sad I lost everything back then. I'm not satisfied at this moment, I wanna see him and have a very long discussion.

Our parents' death caused a huge impact to me. But almost losing a brother stewed me worse. I was forlornly suffering, and my brother was just getting blasted most of the time. I know he was mad to the world because our parents died, and that's why he had changed a lot now. He slagged himself about the tragedies that gave us both condemn. He was full of regrets, and I can see that. The time he's crossing the wrong path, I was all feeling fret about my brother adding up more of the tension. I thought he was in the wrong timing before, letting himself rebel more when they had gone. I worried damn so much.

He was lost, and I can't find him after that. That time I started losing hope in life. I turned my life down and I almost buried myself.

My brother is back.
I gotta get going. This is for me, for him and for us. Even he left a needle pricking my heart for a long time, he came back and that's the most essential thing now.

I heard footsteps coming at my way. Not bothering to look back, I swayed my hanging feet while sitting on the fencings.

"Ya, Jungkook."
I felt her presence sitting beside me. The moment right now has the same position when I tried to suck her my fangs before.
"Are you okay?"