✔ GONE BY [I'm In love]

Chapter 36| First Love

[JI-EUN]

Before I left the place, I glimpsed at Yoongi. He's still silent and emotionless leaning against the wall.

I wanted to stay, but my heart says to follow that one person it beats for. Jungkook. I wanted to talk things over with him. He misunderstood everything about Yoongi and I. He thinks the other way around, and that shouldn't be permanently marked in his mind.

I ran off quickly up to to road but I spotted no one. The surrounding was plain and empty. He already left and I was too late.

I don't know what to do anymore. Everything's messed up.

This is a bad day at all.

A bad evening.

I looked up the sky, and the sky was dark without stars. This time, I was just like in a telenovela. Rain started pouring and this is what I've feared of. A time will come that I'll be alone, hopeless and sorrowful in the middle of the road.

I never knew I could be the reason why I can see the pain in Jungkook's eyes again. I thought his cruelty already ended. But why did I bring it back? Do I really deserve him? This silence is damn bumming.

The rain's dripping waters are too loud in my hearing sense. It's making me deaf. I wanted to pass out. I wanted to escape from this nightmare.

I laid myself on the ground and doused in cloudburst.

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"You can't go out for now, Ji-Eun."

I looked up on Hoseok's angelic face that has full of concernment and affection.

I coughed.
"I want to know where Jungkook is.." I embraced the blanket around my shoulders tighter.

I looked at Hoseok's face, he didn't get to look at me. I looked at Taehyung who's standing in front of my bed, his pitiful eyes were worried. I gazed at Namjoon who's at the doorstep, he also didn't want to tell anything to me, neither Jimin nor Jin.

"I guess it's better for you to give him space." Jin said. He leaned forward and rested his elbows on his knees. "He needs time to think."

Jimin went beside Taehyung and sat with me on the bed.

"In fact you're currently sick, Ji-Eun. You should rest for now." Jimin said.

I had a fever after that night.
I'm thankful to them, they brought me in my house when they found me lying in the middle of the road. It was a casual scene that I really passed out of depression when I really wished to.

"Yeah. He's right. Can't you just take a break?" Taehyung massaged my feet using his big feet too. "Bwii bwii is worried."

I smiled comfortably.
"I'll be fine. I already rested, right?"

Even I gave them a positive feedback, Namjoon still complained.
"Would you like him to worry more? You wouldn't want to, would you?"

I sighed.
Coughs escaped my mouth but I smiled at them.
"I don't know if he still even cares about me."

Jimin argued.
"He cares a lot, you know." His eyes smiled, and he played with his small fingers. "He's sweet even he's a bully to me."  We all stared at Jimin, and he's like a boy who talks about his crush.  "I once faked him when I pretended to be asleep. Did you know what he did? He came over to me and hugged me so tight, whispering 'I love you Jimin hyung'. He never called me as his "hyung" though. But he's a nice person."

Because of his story, I felt a little relieved. Maybe I still have the chance to get an accepted apology from him.

"Everything will be okay," Hoseok cheered me up. "Hwaiting!"