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Lauren's POV

I cried as i held Ally in my arms, no she can't be dead! We're supposed to live together forever! I'm gonna propose to her. What is happening. Please make Ally alive please.

"Please, please try one more time." I cried as i held on to Ally's cold hands.

"But w-we can't anymore Miss Jauregui." The doctor said and i glared at him.

"YOU WILL TRY ONE MORE FUCKING TIME OR I WILL FUCKING BURN THIS FUCKING HOSPITAL DOWN!!!!" I screamed as they hurriedly got all their apparatus and put some oxygen on Ally's mouth while pumping her chest. They led me outside the emergency room and i saw Jerry and Pat and Dinah and Normani and surprisingly, Camila is outside the room also.

I walked towards them with my head bowed down. I felt someone hug me and saw that Camila was the one who did it. I didnt hug her back. Instead, i pushed her so hard that Dinah had to catch her before her head comes contact with the floor.

"Lauren!!" Normani screamed at me and i looked at her.

"What?! This is your fault!" I pointed at Camila.

"W-what d-did i d-do?!" Camila stuttered as tears fall from her eyes.

"YOU COULD'VE TOLD ME!! YOU COULD'VE TOLD ME SOONER THAT ALLY WAS MY GIRLFRIEND. THAT SHE IS THE ONE THAT I LOVE. BUT NO!! YOU FUCKING SELFISH BITCH HAD TO LIE TO ME AND TELL ME THAT YOU'RE MY GIRLFRIEND!! I DON'T KNOW HOW MANY MONTHS I'VE SPENT NOT KNOWING THAT YOU'RE LYING TO ME BUT IF THOSE MONTHS WOULD HAVE BEEN ALLY AND I'S MONTHS THEN I WOULD'VE TOLD HER EVERYTHING IN TIME! I WOULD'VE TOLD HER THAT IM MARRYING HER! But i ran out of time.." I softened a bit.

"Lauren.." Dinah said and was about to hold me but i flinched.

"I- I ran out of time.. I was about to propose.. The day when Troy came back.. But it was all ruined.. If.. If Camila didn't lie, Ally and me would've been married by now.." I said and dropped to my knees and cried with all of my being. I can't do this. I can't lose her.

"Why.. Why do we have to give her a lot of pain.. She doesn't deserve to feel any pain.. I- I didn't know that i was hurting her emotionally when i have amnesia.. Why did i have to forget her.. Why do you need to lie to her.. Why did you sign Troy's petty contract.." I whispered the last part and just closed my eyes. Tears ran down my face as i reminisce Ally's beautiful smile. She deserves to be happy. She deserves all the love and happiness that this world can offer. Why does she need to go through this.

I felt Dinah hugging me and i didn't have any energy to pull away so i just leaned to her and cry. I looked at Dinah and she is crying as well.

"Shh Lauren. She will be fine." Dinah cooed while stroking my hair. Camila sat across from me, just looking while Normani is rubbing my back. Pat and Jerry is still standing up, crying.

"But what if she dies?" I asked and she stopped stroking my hair.

"Dinah, she is already dead when i left her there inside. I just told the doctor to try again because i know that she's s-strong." I cried and i heard Normani cry harder.

We heard the emergency room door open and the doctor came out. He looked at me directly in the eye and shaked his head no.

My world stopped turning, time stopped. Everything around me stopped, i felt my whole world crumble. She's gone. Ally's gone.

I can't hold myself anymore so i screamed very loud while holding Dinah so tight. I pulled away from Dinah and tried getting up but she's holding me back.

"LET MW FUCKING GO!! NO!!! YOU'RE FUCKING LYING!! SHE IS ALIVE! SHE IS FINE STOP LYING FOR FUCK'S SAKE PLEASE!!" I screamed as Dinah hugged me and Normani just held my hand with her other hand covering her mouth to contain her cries.

"Please Doc. You're lying." I cried and he once again shaked his head no.

"She's inside. If you want to see her, you can go one by one." The doctor said then walked away. I looked at Pat and Jerry and they are all looking into space, looking like they're about to get crazy. I got up and hugged them both and there they broke down in tears. I held them tight while crying as well.

"Do you want to come in first?" They asked me and i looked at them.

"You're the parents. You should go first." I said.

"We can't see her just yet.. T-This is t-too heart b-breaking.. Please L- Lauren.. G- Go first.." pat said and i nodded my head. I faced the emergency room door. I looked at the window and saw a thin white blanket covering Ally's body from where i saw her lying awhile ago.

"Are you sure?" Dinah asked and i ignored her and just walked inside.

I walked towards Ally's bed and just looked at the thin fabric covering her body. I reached for the hem and slowly brought it down and i was now faced with a peaceful sleeping Ally. I held my mouth and cried very hard. I reached for her hair and stroked it slowly.

"Baby.. I thought i told you to stay with me." I said as i carried her and moved her a little so i can lie down beside her. When i saw that there is now enough space, i lied down beside her and hugged her.

"I lost you.." I said and i closed my eyes and i cried. My heart feels like it's literally breaking into pieces. I propped myself up using my elbow and just looked at her. I ran my fingers down her cheek to her jaw and just looked at her.

"I love you Ally." I said and pulled out the engagement ring that i was supposed to give her awhile ago.

"I'm sorry if i didn't have the chance to protect you." I said as i kissed her forehead.

"I'm sorry if we spent too little time to catch up to all those years that we didn't know that we were inlove." I said as i kissed her cheek.

"And i'm sorry if we ran out of time.. I'm sorry if i ran out of time." I said as i kissed her lips. I stood up and reached for her cold hands. I pulled out the velvet box out of my leather jacket pocket and took out the engagement ring that i was supposed to give her.

"I'm still marrying you Ally. Someday." I said as i slid the ring on her ring finger and kissed it. A tear fell to her arm as i closed my eyes tightly. I looked at her peaceful face and put her palms on my cheek.

"You should be here. You could've stayed with me.. But i- i lost you.. Again." I said then i closed my eyes.

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