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Ally's POV

"Kiss me when i'm fully awake, okay love?"

I froze from the moment i heard that words come out from Lauren's mouth. I didn't even realize that she is awake when i kissed her. I shouldn't be panicking but what if she tell someone? I can't. My mom will fucking kill me.

Oh, sorry Lord for the curse word i am just so stressed.

Maybe i shouldn't have done that.

What we're you thinking Allyson?! Why did you kiss Lauren?!

I don't know, i am sorry. I just can't help it. I am in love with Lauren.

You can't feel that Allyson. No!! Stop it right now before anything goes wrong!!!

I am being a crazy bitch right now talking to myself but i don't care. I really do feel something for Lauren and it scares me because one, i am still confused on my sexuality and two, my mom. I can't bring down my mom. She's the reason why i am here and i will never let her down.

We entered the club and damn the club is so lit. There's a lot of people dancing in the dance floor. Some are on the bar taking shots and some are in the corner doing Lord knows what.

"Hey ally, don't let go of my hand okay?" Lauren screamed and brought me back in reality. I looked around and saw that Camila, Normani and Dinah Jane was now out of sight.

"Where are the girls Lauren?" I asked her screaming.

"I don't know. They said something about taking shots but i didn't hear it clearly." She told me while dragging me on a booth that was on the corner.

"You think they will know that we are here?"

"Maybe, Ally stop worrying about them and have fun okay? You need to have fun." She told me. She's so comfortable around me. It's like nothing happened awhile ago when Troy pushed her and punched her.

"Hey Lauren." I tapped her.

"Yes babe?"

"I'm s-sorry." I told her, there were tears forming in my eyes but i tried to hold them back.

"Hey baby, it's fine. Don't worry about it. It's not like Troy's punches will stop me from loving you. No one, and i mean NO ONE will ever stop me from loving you. This is not the perfect place to confess but i really do love you Ally. From the moment i saw you on X-Factor, you took my breath away. Whenever i see you smile, it's like time stops and you're the only one i see. You mean so much to me Ally and if we can only be friends, then that's fine. Really. Just always remember that i will never stop loving you. I will always love you."

It's like the world stops turning and we're the only ones in the club. I can't explain what i am feeling right now but there is one thing that made me so sure that i am so in love with Lauren already, the butterflies on my stomach.

I am not yet ready for this so i just cried my eyes out on her shoulder. I can't return all those words to her. Even if i want to, i just can't. My mom would be so disappointed with me.

"It's okay Ally, i'm not asking something in return i just-- i- i love you." She said and started crying to. I felt someone hug me from behind and i saw Dinah hugging us both.

"Go have fun Lauren, i got her." Dinah said and hugged me and Lauren stood up to go somewhere. A part of me wants to grab her hand and kiss her passionately but there's still a part of me where i want to let her go.

And that's what i did.

I just watched her vanish to the pool of people and sob at Dinah's shoulder.

"Stop crying sunshine, you know you're too beautiful for that." Dinah said.

"I just c-can't Dinah. I w-want to tell h-her that i l-love her but i just can't b-because of m-my mom." I said as my tears won't stop flowing.

"I'm sorry Ally for everything that is going on right now. You don't deserve to feel any of this. But I'll tell you what, if you really love Lauren the you've got to take risk. Stop worrying on what other people will say and start caring on what you feel. You need to fight for what you want Ally. No one can stop you from loving Lauren unless you really want to stop those feelings that you're feeling towards her."

I contemplated for a good 5 minutes and thought that Dinah was right. Lauren makes me happy and she is the best thing that will ever happen to me. My mom would be disappointed but so what? Not that i don't care on what my mom would comment but it's my happiness. Lauren is my happiness.

"Dinah, you're right. Maybe i am wrong the whole time. I really should fight for what i want." I told her and stood up.

"That's the spirit my sunshine, go get your girl!" She stood up to and slapped my butt.

~5 minutes later~

I've been looking for Lauren everywhere and i still couldn't find her. I am headed to the bathroom right now to wash away all the stress that i am feeling right now.

As i entered the bathroom, i saw Lauren and blonde girl kissing which made my heart break but at the same time, make my blood boil. Lauren's face is so red which means she's drunk.

I entered the bathroom and walked towards them and ripped the blonde girl away from my Lauren. YES. MY LAUREN.

"What are you doing?!" The blonde girl asked.

"What does it look like?! I am stopping you from eating MY GIRLFRIEND." I told her sassily and held Lauren because she's stumbling.

"YOU SAID YOU DON'T HAVE A GIRLFRIEND?! UUUUGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!" The blonde ask and stormed of the bathroom. I looked at Lauren and saw that she was already half asleep but still tried to make her eyes open.

"Hey baby, look at me. You wanna go home?" I asked her.

"No, i want t-to wa*hiccups*sh my fa*hiccups*ce." She told me and i led her to the sink. I washed her face and wiped the water off of her face using a toilet paper.

"Come on let's go outside." I told her and put her arms around the back of my neck and led her to the door.

As we're about to reach the door, she pushed me on the wall under the light switch. She put her arms up in both sides of my face while her head is down.

Her right hand made its way to the light switch and she turned it off while her left hand made its way to the door to lock it. The room was now pitch black but there is still a source of light because there is a mini bulb that is on.

My heart was beating so fast and i don't know what to do.

"L-Lauren, i think we s-shou--"

"SSSSSHHHHHH" She held her point finger up my lips to stop me from saying anything.

"Who told you that you can interrupt my make out session?" She asked while her head is still facing down and her hands are on the both side of my face. She's not on her drunk mode. Maybe tipsy but not drunk.

"I am jealous Jauregui. I don't want anyone kissing those lips." I said sassily.

"And why?" She looked at me and there is where i lost my chill. Her green eyes looked deep into my soul and i just ran out or words.

"B-because--" I said but didn't finish because i was too shy.

"You need to make it up to me you know. I don't want my make out sessions to be interrupted" She said while her right hand snaked at my lower back and pulled me closer to her. Our height difference is cute so i looked up at her to see that out lips is only centimeters away from me.

"Kiss me already Lauren." I said and she wasted no time to capture my lips.

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