Harry's sister

chapter nine

((A/N I'm not going to pay attention to the points given and taken just assume any extra points were made up or lost by someone else in the person's house. Also I'm going to try and post a new chapter on the 15th and 30th of every month))

It was mid-December And I was very busy helping Hagrid nurse the few owls that made their way threw the snow back to health. of course I hadn't gotten any notes from my secret admirer and it was slightly disappointing but I was also glad that it was one less owl who had to brave the angry blizzard outside.

I had been continuing to work on my magic without using my wand (with the teachers permission of course) and had managed to be able to do a small heating spell to keep myself and people very close to me warm unfortunately Harry was seated to far away from me in all our classes for me to use the spell on him but I had used it on Draco, Crabbe, goyle and anyone else sitting close enough since I figured they didn't deserve to freeze.

One potions lesson I noticed a note left in my seat. I figured it was from Snape and was sliding it in my bag when I heard Draco make a snide comment along the lines of "I do feel so sorry, for all those people who have to stay at Hogwarts for Christmas because they're not wanted at home." He was looking at Harry as he spoke, Crabbe and Goyle chuckled. evidently they'd forgotten Harry and I were related and what he said had struck a nerve.

The blanket of heat I had placed on the people around me disappeared as I lost concentration and you could instantly see their breath in the air. Draco seemed to realize he'd hurt my feelings and looked apologetic but it seemed Snape had also realized what Draco had said upset me and called him out saying "five points will be taken from Slytherin for that comment Draco."

The class seemed shocked that Snape had repremanded Draco but they soon moved on as a very hard potion was assigned and their attention was focused on it.

I knew Snape had only called out Draco because the comment had obviously hurt me, it was clear he didn't care about Harry's feelings. I also knew Draco only meant to make fun of Harry, he was jealous and angry of my brother but knowing he meant no harm towards me didn't make me any less angry or hurt by the comments he almost constantly made.

i had been constantly hexing him whenever I found out he had said something bad about or towards Harry but my magic had slowly been losing the power behind it because i knew Draco wasnt as bad as he seemed. I had also been nicer to Ron since he was staying for Christmas with us. Or at least those were the excuses I came up with. In truth I always got depressed around Christmas and it was effecting my everyday life at Hogwarts. Harry knew but could never figure out how to help so he usually just left me alone, in truth that probably made it worse.

My magic was dwindling to where I couldn't even cast the simplest of spells without saying the words multiple times and even then my wand would usually just zap the thing closest to me, my potions were always horribly wrong, I was going long periods without food and I always felt cold even with the blanket of heat I had wrapped around me that wasn't as warm or strong as it had originally been and sometimes didn't work at all.

Hagrid had tried to help by keeping me busy and tending to the owls and animals in the forest did make me feel happy but it never lasted long. the teachers were worried and Fred and George were continuously trying to cheer me up with pranks and sometimes that worked too and I'd be happy for the day until it was time to go to sleep and I couldn't help thinking of nothing and everything at the same time. My mind never seemed to turn off and it was keeping me up at night.

I had bags under my eyes and was losing the weight I had gained fast, it seemed the whole school was worried but I still felt empty. it was like their was a gaping hole in my chest that couldn't be filled. Sometimes it was hard to breathe and I'd have to stop and leave in the middle of class because I was so overwhelmed and felt like I was suffocating.

At the end of class I ended up not having a potion because it had melted through my cauldron and had to be quickly cleaned up by Snape no points were taken from Gryffindor but I was warned to be more careful. Harry, harmione and Ron left first and I heard them talking to Hagrid when Draco made another snide comment.

I walked out from behind them into view Just as ron dived at Draco and snape came out of the classroom. "WEASLEY!" Snape yelled, Hagrid tried to defend Ron but it didn't seem to work well so I said "professor I agree fighting should not be permitted but Draco did say something rude about Ron's family. you've overlooked all the times I've hexed both Draco and Ron for less, can't you overlook this one incident?" Snape and Hagrid looked taken aback while Ron just looked angry and Draco had a confusing look on his face I couldn't read.

Snape sighed and said "be that as it may Ms.potter a small tripping jinx and attacking someone are two completely different things. 3 points from Gryffindor, Weasley, and be grateful it isn't more. Now move along all of you." I nodded as Snape, Draco, Crabbe and Goyle all moved past the tree Hagrid was holding.

I sighed as Ron mumbled about getting Malfoy and Harry said "I hate them both, Malfoy and Snape." Those few words saddened me for some reasons, I knew Harry had good reason to hate Snape and Malfoy and I knew either he was already starting to get mad at me or he would start soon because not only did I like Snape and Malfoy but they liked me back and seemed to favor me.

Hagrid tried to cheer us up by taking us to the great Hall and seeing how beautiful and bright it looked actually made me smile. I ignored harmione, Ron, Harry and Hagrid as i walked towards professor McGonagall and asked "excuse me, professor, I was wondering if i could help decorate?" She looked down at me and I didn't miss the flash of surprise on her face before she nodded smiling and said "of course Ms. Potter please go decorate the tree Hagrid is putting up."

I nodded and took out my wand focusing on the tree intently as I used magic to decorate it, surprisingly my magic was stronger then it had been since December had started. In the back of my mind I registered the teachers and a few students coming in and watching me as I happily decorated the large tree to perfection.

At the end of the day I remembered the letter and opened it to see it was from my secret admirer. I couldn't help smiling as I read it.

Dear canis,

Are you ok? You don't seem yourself lately and I'm worried. Is their anything I can do to help? Send back by owl or leave it on the Gryffindor table at the end of breakfast.

Sincerely, Y.S.A

I sighed and simply wrote "I don't know." Before looking outside and deciding it would be better to just leave it at the Gryffindor table at the end of breakfast.