Trapped by Emotions

Best Friend in Heaven and Hell

It was Saturday morning, which means that that day had come, I had to face Harry and I had to face the truth. Despite of being afraid of that problem I had, I tried to calm down since I understood psychology and thought that I would be able to deal with that problem. I sent Rosalie the message saying: «Today I want you to try to deal with Harry regarding your relationship and confess him everything you need, your emotions, your feelings and your thoughts, but don't fight with him, I'll be with you». I was thinking about how it would look like when we meet and I just couldn't stop thinking about that, it bothered me very much. I got a call from Rosalie after some time, she said that she would try to handle it all herself and she promised me that everything would be ok since I was worried. Not much time had passed when I even got a call from Harry, he asked me what we were going to drink, I said that it didn't matter, I liked all kinds of drinks. We had been talking for twenty minutes and with every word we said, I was getting more sad about what I had done, but I knew that I don't want to hurt him, I just love Rosalie.

So, the time had come, as I was preparing for that meeting, many thoughts were running through my head, but I was ready. I also prepared for everything that would happen after we solve everything with Harry. I knew that many people would condemn me, hate me, fight with me and maybe I would even lose some friends, but all people who would do that, would be the ones that didn't understand me, however, I guess their arguments would be at least half valid since I really did a bad thing, but also with a strong argument – love. Well, upon arriving at Tom's place I met Rosalie who had just arrived at the same time I did, so we rang the bell, it was Tom's brother Justin who opened the door, he was our age, he loved to mock with others, so immediately as we entered he made a joke about my height comparing with Rosalie's, I was a very tall man, but still he was a little taller than me, we looked like two giants comparing with Rosalie. Justin wasn't really a friendly guy and I didn't like him very much, but I guess I had to endure him during that time. Tom was sitting in his living room and smoking a cigarette while watching TV and he invited us to come in, we were the first that had come that night, I was nervous so I also lighted my cigarette and Justin had gone into mocking me, because my hands were shaking a bit, then I said: «Oh shut up, Chinaman!» - I knew Justin since he was a kid and his nickname was Chinaman, he was always pissed when someone would call him by that nickname since his eyes looked like he came from China, so he just went to hall to get his jacket and he told us that he was going to shop to buy cigars, but he was gone for a long time when he went out. I guess he pretended that he didn't hear me when I called him a Chinaman or he was just pissed off. After some time being there and chatting with Tom and Rosalie, Freddy arrived along with Tony and Trixie and of course, Harry was the last one to come, he was always late. He kissed Rosalie upon arrival, it was hard to watch, but I didn't have a choice, did I? Tom offered us some wine, beer and whisky he had at his house and he turned on some music, so we started partying. I was drinking and waiting for the right moment to start that serious conversation with Harry, I told Rosalie to wait for him to get a bit drunk.

As some time had passed, Harry drank a lot and he was already a bit drunk, I tried to stay normal so I didn't drink too much that evening and neither had Rosalie, finally I asked Harry to come, we moved aside from the others so we wouldn't get disturbed. I started a conversation with some simple friendly talk and then came to discussion about Rosalie and told him that his relationship with Rosalie wasn't really healthy and that she told me that she was suffering as he was always about alcohol and partying and she was feeling neglected in that relationship, I was too scared to tell him that she cheated on him with me and I was also scared to confess that I wanted Rosalie to be MY girlfriend and not his, so I called Rosalie to talk to him, she was shaking of fear and she didn't say very much, Harry was speaking the whole time and she only said that the relationship wasn't working very well and that she didn't want to be with him anymore, he just said that he knew that it would come to this. I felt really bad, I tried to cheer him up so we started to drink pretty fast, I wanted to calm down and he wanted to forget about Rosalie being part of his life, he realized that he had made a mistake when he entered a relationship with girl such as her. I wanted to go home, I was feeling really bad, I just hugged Rosalie upon leaving and said goodbye to everyone and they were all around Rosalie comforting her so Harry decided to go with me and gave me a bottle of beer to drink on my way, he came almost halfway to my house with me and he was saying that I was a real friend and that I was like a brother to him, he said that he knew that I like Rosalie and that he wasn't angry at me because of that. I wasn't a real friend, Harry was and he had always been my real friend and I was the one who did a mistake. I felt broken, but however, I was relieved that I was finally over with that, although the consequences are going to come...