Trapped by Emotions

A Child in the Thirties

That morning, the sun was shining brightly, there was a lot of moisture in the air, so it was extremely fresh and it wasn't even so warm, it was really a pleasant spring day. A lot of time had passed since the «friendship trouble» struck me, but then all of a sudden, everything seemed great. I hadn't been thinking about that cursed day so much. I was attending college and in my free time I was just enjoying my time with Rosalie and my other friends while trying to completely put Tom and Trixie aside, but then again, it wasn't so easy since I had been seeing them once in a while on the streets in the bypass. Furthermore, I was suspecting that Rosalie didn't really stop hanging out with Trixie. Although Rosalie was attending the college and Trixie wasn't, Trixie and her were best friends and I know that it's probably very hard to let someone go, who was so close to you as a best friend, to let someone like that go away must be a real pain since Trixie didn't really do anything wrong to Rosalie, but I was expecting Rosalie to be empathetic, because I was hurt and she was the reason and to let Trixie go because of that. However, Rosalie said that she had stopped hanging out with her, but of course I didn't believe her, although I wanted to. Strangely, I got a really unexpected message that morning, it was from a guy I met one day at the park long ago while I was out with Harry, Rosalie and Tom during the autumn. He seemed quite crazy, especially when he had been drunk. He was always singing, jumping around, running, everyone considered him a cool guy and so did I. He was a man older than anyone there, he was around thirty. His name was Ronald and after a long chat that we had on facebook, he decided to invite me to coffee that afternoon at the bar that was not so far from my house, so I told him that I would come. I invited Rosalie too, but she surprisingly refused to come, she told me that she had some serious studying to do since she was writing an important exam tomorrow, furthermore, she didn't really know the man very well and she said that he was «scary». It was very suspicious to me that she refused MY call since she had never done that before, but I couldn't do anything about it, so I went to that coffee alone. I was confused upon arrival at the place since Ronald greeted me by giving me a hug. I never greeted like that with any of my friends, but it didn't bother me. He was a very generous man, as we had ordered our coffee, he said that it was on him, that he would pay. I was even more confused by his munificience. We had been sitting there and chatting for two hours. I realized that he is a big fan of rock and metal music, so I asked him if he was playing any instrument. He said that he wasn't, but that he would like to, but since he considered himself too old to start playing in his thirties, he gave up. I told him that I was also a big fan of rock and metal and that I was playing an electric guitar. He told me that it was great and asked me if I had any band. I told him that I wasn't, but that I would really like to start playing in one. As we continued our chat, I found out that he wasn't really a religious type and he was talking about religion in a very crude way. I agreed with him on several aspects of his view, but then again, I was not so critical about religion, as a matter of fact, it didn't actually mean that much to me, but I was against the Church, although I was raised by strict Catholics, I formed my attitude myself, through life and through all the books I read, science was much more acceptable. As the time passed, we started talking about girls and relationships, I told him about my happy relationship with Rosalie, although we had some problems – I didn't want to implicate him, so I avoided to tell him about it in details. I just told him that those were tough times for us and that it was a long story. He said that he was sorry and that he hoped that my relationship would stay happy as it was. Furthermore, he told me that he had found himself a girlfriend a few weeks ago, although they met on facebook. I felt sick when I heard that since I am strongly against virtual relationships. Anyways, I had been hiding my thoughts about it and told him to continue, so he said that he felt it was real and that she would meet him very soon and he decided to introduce Rosalie and me to her when she comes and he told me to invite Rosalie to come with me next time we go to coffee with him. I told him that I invited her even that afternoon, but that she had to study. He was sorry to hear that. Soon, the moon had risen and our long chat came to an end, I told him that I was really glad and delighted to have a chat with him and I thanked him. He told me that he also enjoyed the time we spent on coffee and told me that we would continue our chat on facebook. He also told me that we should hang out more often. I agreed, said goodbye and leisurely went home. As I came home and logged on to facebook, a message from Ronald was already there and I also had a message from Rosalie, she literally went crazy about that long stay on coffee I had with Ronald, but I managed to calm her down since I explained to her that she was studying and that it wasn't my fault. She told me that she was worried and I told her that I understood that and that I would also start to worry, but that it's nothing to be so worried about. Luckily, we didn't get into a bad fight that we would usually get into. Rosalie and I had a lot of fights, many of them were not serious, but then again, it was not pleasant. I didn't want to bother with that very much. Since that event on Freddy's birthday, I stopped drinking so often and I wasn't even going out very much, except with Rosalie, but then again, my life was on the one hand, much better than before, despite of it being so laid back, I realized the value of a laid back living, you don't need much to have fun, you just enjoy the fresh air, enjoy the time you spend with people that mean something to you and get rid of everyone that could bring you harm, you don't need a lot of people and a long night stay with a lot of alcoholic drinks beside you to calm you and have fun. Actually, I started to hate alcohol in some way, I thought it was the cause of everything bad that happened, if Rosalie didn't get drunk that stupid night, nothing would happen and if I wasn't drunk, I would have cared for her in the first place and I wouldn't get in any of the conflicts. Then again, I came to another thought, maybe alcohol isn't bad, maybe I just drank too much, but I became smarter since that evening, I hadn't been drunk since that night, not even once, although I was always up for some beer. Anyways, you experience life just the way it is in your own mind. Every man looks at the world on his own way, with his own eyes, he judges people by the way he experienced them himself and he forms his attitude on the subjective way. No man can judge the world objectively...