The ups and downs

Im not okay(i promise)

I lightly moved Oliver's hair out of his eyes as he slept. He was still asleep from the Anesthesia. I smiled he was adorable when he slept.

I sat back down on the chair close to his bed and held his hand. I was discharged since I didn't have anything deathly wrong with me. They were nice enough to give me a pair of sweat pants and a t shirt, since my clothes were well you know.

Oliver stirred and opened his eyes, "where the fuck am I?" He sat up slowly and rubbed his eyes. The nurse quickly rushed in, "Take it easy Mr. Sykes. The pain killers will be kicking in soon-" she injected his IV with what I assume are the pain killers. "Just relax, we will keep you here until the night. We called your family they will be here soon."

It was around 8 am, but it felt as if it had only been minutes since everything went down. Oliver nodded and laid down. He turned over and saw me sitting next to him. I gave him a small smile. "Hey there sleepy head." I mumbled to him.

He stared at me then his eyes widened. "I'm sorry." Is all he said then he went to sleep without another word. What the fuck was that. He is sorry? He practically saved my life and got shot doing so. But he's sorry?

An hour later his family arrived and I moved to the corner of his room. He mother stormed over to me and slapped me, "HOW THE FUVK DID YOU LET THAT HAPPEN TO MY BABY YOU WHORE!!" "I told him to fucking run! I told him the guy had a gun! The man knocked me out when I warned him! I don't know what the duck exactly happens after that! So please stop ducking accusing me of everything that happened. I feel like shit for him getting shot." I teared up.

She began to ball her eyes out, "I'm sorry honey. It's just so stressing hearing what happened. And I mean look at you?! You look worse than him!" Her husband came over and consoled her. I walked outside to go grab some coffee.

"Hey, Daisy was it?" I turned around to see a girl about my size looking at me. "Yeah, you must be Oli's sister. Becca was it?"  I smiled. "Yeah, um I'm sorry my mom freaked out on you, clearly you didn't want Oliver to get hurt and plus I feel like you got the short stick on this one." I shook my head, "it's not a competition, I'm going to grab some coffee you wanna come?" She smiled and followed me.

We both arrived with coffee in our hands for oli's parents and brother and ourselves as well. Oliver shot up with the smell of coffee, "mmm can I have some angel?" I snorted "we can split mine, I'm not sure if I'm even allowed to have caffeine and I don't know if you can either."

I sat at the end of Oliver's bed and we just talked. I started to laugh to myself and he looked confused," What is there something on my face or something?" He tilted his head. I shook my head, "no nothing is on your face it's just-" I laughed even more.

"You know how there was going to be the little surprise? I guess this was the suppose for the both of us." He laughed and I joined in." I guess a very fucked up surprise." His face then turned pale suddenly.

"How much do you remember exactly flower girl?" My smile dropped," I remember him making me basically strip then I warned you then blackness." Tears started to stream down his face.

I scooted closer to him and wiped away his tears and kissed his cheek. "Don't cry everything is well not fine but no one is severely fucked up." He pushed me away. "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." He put his hands on his face.

"There isn't an easy way of saying this but after I got shot I faked being dead for a bit and he, he took advantage of you in your unconscious state. I couldn't take it anymore so I beat the shit out of him. I shouldn't of let him do it, i just wanted to call 911." He started to cry.

I just sat there, he had raped me. And oli saw it. I don't feel anything just numb. I just stood up and kissed Oliver's hand, "I'm gonna go home and clean...love ya bye." I used the hospital phone to call Melanie to come pick me up from the hospital.

She arrived in half an hour and just hugged me, "i heard about what happened? Are you okay? How's Oliver?" "Oli is fine, well as fine as you can be. But some guys broke in and oli basically saved me but I got knocked out and he got shot, stuff happens during that...." she looked confused but then she realized what I meant.

"I'm so sorry hun." She pulled me into a hug. "Do you want to run in and see Oliver?" She nodded her head and I brought her to him. I just stood in the corner, I just need space.

I got home and told Mel that I'd be fine alone. I called a window repair guy and began to clean up my house. I cut my hand while getting the glass, my blood put me in a bit of a trans. I put it on my wrist and slid it across, over and over again.

I cleaned my arm up and started to clean Oliver's blood from my bedroom floor, there was so much. I looked at my bed and saw blood stains on the sheets. I threw the sheets away and put new ones on my bed. I lite some candles and waited for the repair guy.

Soon it was night time and I have a new window which costed me around 200 dollars, I need to get a job. My mom isn't coming back I need to support myself. I grabbed my laptop and quickly found a job at a restaurant as a waitress that was only a 30 minutes away, less if I rode my bike. I'll  go in the morning.

I decided to sleep on the couch, I didn't want to go back in my room. Too many bad things happened in there. I put on a sweatshirt Oliver left at my house and slowly drifted to sleep.