The ups and downs

Fill me up

*pov of Daisy*
The more intense it was the more I began to realize I can't do this. Not yet. We've only know each other for like a month.

Oli began to notice he pulled away," is everything okay love?" I looked at him and smiled,"yeah, I just don't think sex is something we should do just yet. We've only been together like a week or so, and only known each other for a month."

He chuckled," I guess you're right love. Sorry, just other girls like throw themselves at me so I wasn't sure if you were the same way. I like that you aren't." I gave a small smile.

------flash forward to August(a month later)----

The tour is on its final day. I have to get ready for college. I've decided on Washington State University, they have a decent medical program and I guess that's what I want to do.

I'll miss the guys, Oli says he'll be staying in a hotel not far from campus so we can see each other. But I'm not sure it's fair to him. I've been thinking of renting an apartment rather than live at school, so Oli can stay there with me for a bit before returning home.

I began to look online for a cheap apartment close by. And by the grace of God I found one. It was a studio apartment that was a 10 minute walk from the main campus and my classes. It was only $400 a month. I'll need to get another job but I have managed to have quite a bit saved.

I decided to rent it, i signed a six month lease and then agreed to pay for extra months I stay. This was all done in the city since the tour ended in Washington.

The lads made me preform Deathbeds and Don't Go with them for their final show. Wow did I just say lads? I need to hang around some Americans.

Soon we were going to a fancy restaurant to celebrate the end. I was sad, I'm going to miss them. I started to cry when I brought them to the airport.

"I love you guys! You're all so amazing! We need to meet up again." I was able to muster out through sobs. We all pulled into a group hug and said our goodbyes. Thankfully Oli was staying with me but I lost Goldfish and Nicholls which is heartbreaking.

"They said the apartment is ready to be moved into. But I own nothing, it comes with a fridge and oven. So which one do you wanna sleep in?" Oli laughed," you are so weird love. Let's run to the mattress store." "Oli you know it takes a bit of time before they deliver the bed and stuff right?" The smirk feel right off his face, he ended up pulling into target to get an air mattress and sheets.

The apartment is the perfect size for a couple, or for me when Oli goes back home. "Welp this is where I'll be living in for a while." I said,"Well I'll stay with you for a bit love." I looked at him and smiled,"well when does your visa end?"

"Next month! So I'll be with you for a month." He grinned. "So what do you want to eat tonight love?" I put my index finger on my chin," how about the vegan place I saw on the way here?" He smiled," you know you don't have to go to a vegan place for me, right?" I nodded," I'm thinking of becoming a vegan so let's go!"

The vegan place was amazing, like it's probably my favorite thing ever.

Oli and I got home around 11 pm, so the night was still young. "Ugh Oli I don't wanna go to college next week." I fell down on the couch," well you don't have to go, I mean I got pretty far in life so did a bunch of other people." I looked at him," I have no talent Oli, so I need to go."

He frowned and sat next to me," you are you have an amazing voice, you're an amazing designer, and just an amazing person. Don't think you have to do something just cuz it's normal love." He placed his hand on my head, which was face down in a pillow. I muffled," you're just saying that. Meh," I sat up" life's annoying y'know?" He nodded his head.

Oli went to sleep around 2 am, I on the other hand decided to not. "Come to bed love, you don't want to feel dead tomorrow." "I will be Oli, just need to finish this up." "Okay, goodnight love." He kissed my head and went off to bed. The bedroom had this wall separating it from everything else, so I was able to continue job hunting.

Oli has offered for me to model and design for Drop Dead but I don't want to mooch off of him or anything like that. I'll design for him for sure, since it's a fun escape for me. But I need a good job.

It was around 4 am when I found a job waiting tables at a sports bar not to far from my apartment. I sent my resume and hoped for the best.

I still couldn't sleep so I decided to listen to music, which was Bring Me The Horizon. I always do it in secret though, I don't want Oli to make fun of me.

Im scared to get close and I hate being alone... I closed my eyes and exhaled, this is what I needed.